revuri 🩸

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great to know you need to buy all of her maps for 100% Love that

oh ok so you only show up when you extort all my money i get it

no not really. it feels off when strangers or people i dont know well enough (online specific) call me by my name

got called rev for the first time earlier today. felt good about it Weird

think thats all im gonna say for the month. probably unless i feel like talking about something else

with compositions and backgrounds. the latter of which i dont do at all lmfao it would be fine had the patience to learn keybinds for the proper tools in csp but whatever. and with compositions i feel like ive gotten better with it? idk ive gotten that specific compliment before but i cant tell

struck a healthy balance with that in one of my more recent pieces so i guess im learning something. other than rendering i do want to try my hand at making a comic strip (which is a daunting task if you know anything about how much work goes into making a layout thats readable) and getting better

also a part of this is definitely the fact i kind of hate using thin lineart. i always struggled with making it look good lol. good that i discovered that i guess? but i also dont like using thick lineart at the same time. it gets a bit tricky to render a piece if i want to do that but i think i

i think im genuinely liking the art im making now. there are still some things i want to do so i can feel like ive proven something within myself but thats for later. something about that anime twink i guess

wb hunk layout

i think its funny the rant from yesterday was the main reason i actually finished this Lol.

its a mix of taking too long to get anywhere & (if i do get anywhere) the end product doesn’t look nearly as good as the image in my head. i could definitely absolve my hatred or whatever by just practicing and being patient but its unfortunately been a cycle i cant get out of

anyway watch this 2010 anime i like it makes me feel something

did i ever mention why almost everything i post is an uncolored sketch. well yeah

this trails into other aspects of my life i would rather not share but ive said what i wanted to. im just so thankful i have the privilege to live like the worthless passionless and jobless fucking bum that ive lived like for at least 2 years at this point. yay me

it doesnt stop at feeling disappointed with myself, i do enough of that already and ive had that thought for years. im expected to do this as my job as i honestly have fuck all going for me and i feel like such a fucking fraud and any peace i find in my life is shattered by those expectations

i want to try things like rendering, painting, literally any shading technique but i hate doing all of it. but again i really want to. maybe im not putting enough effort into trying but it is genuinely the worst feeling working on a piece that i don't want to touch within a 20 mile radius

thinking about my stagnant growth with art and it kind of just fucking sucks. the only thing i consider myself good at is my line expression but what if i want to do more than that? i don't have a consistent way to progress past into the next stage without loathing every part of it

getting the hang of it... he looks like a bug...

thank you very much! im hoping i do too ❤️

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dumping these for now im sure ill post these more formally later

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sry hunk 💔

perpetually always thinking of using this site more (and will probably do that on my main art acc) its just i wont use this one until private accounts become a thing. im just a little paranoid sometimes!''''''''