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sooo ummm
if you still remember me then... I'm alive and I'm not ready to go back online. I don't have time to draw anything here or on Twitter. i am trying to recover from everything. I don't think I'm important enough on Twitter to come back. so umm just hope that someday I'll be back idk.

sorry for not posting anything here or on twitter. I try to survive every day, I'm tired of everything in the world. don't even count on GF, I'm already tired of forcing myself to draw GF. I am exhausted and emotionally destroyed.

how to force yourself to draw GF aaaaaaaaaaaa I can't force myself anymore help help help

I just hope I don't kms

my mental health is very very bad. how can i survive.

I don't find the strength to draw GF. I have the strength to draw another, but not GF. what to do.

oh no, the lights started turning off very often in my area again. this means that it will be even more difficult for me to draw pictures. fuck this world man. i'm so tired.

I didn't go outside for a month and I finally went outside today! the air is very polluted in my area today, but it didn't stop me from being outside for a little while.

actually I really had thoughts of simply disappearing from the Internet so as not to spoil people's mood, etc. I feel like I do not deserve to post something on the Internet after all this. hah nahh what idk

I didn't want my art to make someone feel uncomfortable, I've been bringing positivity and goodness to everyone all my life. when a person blocks me, first of all, I blame myself and only myself. a person like me cannot be on the Internet. i'm disgusting. hah idk just wanted shared my thoughts.

I hate myself even more because I drew not what I want but what others want. I hate what I drew in the beginning. it's disgusting it's terrible, it made a lot of cool people block me. it made me hate myself even more. when I see that I am blocked I want to disappear. I ruined everything for myself.

okeydoke it's time to show you my drawings with my (and my friend) OCs~ 😋

I have so many ideas for comics, but I understand that my strength and my time are simply not enough. my gosh aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

okay, the comic that my follower drew inspired me, now I also wanted to draw a comic. there is very little chance that I will be able to draw tomorrow. so do not hope this comic will be tomorrow.
at such moments, the desire to draw my AU returns.

i forgot about these lol

doodles

now, I can only draw stupid GF doodles, I spend more of my energy on drawing OCs. and also, my drawings turn out much worse when I draw it not with pleasure. actually makes sense hah.

it's bad when I don't enjoy drawing something, but people are waiting, so I draw. right now it's really difficult to draw something on GF, because my friend and I came up with new OCs and now all thoughts are only about them.

everyday, at first I feel good, and then I remember that I need to draw something on GF in twitter, and I'm just like: fuck.
I'm seriously losing my mood hah.from the very beginning I did not draw for myself, but for others.
for me, bluesky is like a diary haha.

I just did not expect that I would have an audience? I was just always in the shadow of everything, I was never someone on the Internet. and with this influx of people I was confused. and brought myself to a very bad condition.

I started doing more of my own things, in the sense that earlier I was completely devoted to Twitter, I didn't sleep, I didn't eat, I just drew and drew. but I have brought my mental and physical condition to a very bad state. I passed out while drawing. I can't take care of myself yea.

actually It's been a long time since I've been not interested in drawing something based on GF, I just draw to keep active on twitter. I'm more interested in drawing my OCs, but only you will see my OCs my dear Bluesky followers. I love you all!

Bluesky you'll be first to see my stupid doodles.

doodles
one of my OC :-P

"Triangular Parasite AU"
meeting between Stanley and..Ford?..
#GravityFallsAU #GravityFalls

I feel much freer in bluesky so maybe i can finally share my oc or other fandoms that I love and not to be afraid that people will unsubscribe from me yeey