݁　⏾　moonlight's　embrace　.͟.͟.͟

you left me. it was only natural for me to think you wanted nothing to do with me anymore.

you left me. it was only natural for me to think you wanted nothing to do with me anymore.

they say that with immortal life comes an infinite amount of bliss. but in realityˎ immortality is nothing more than a glorified curse. an infinite life is not a giftˎ it is a prison from which there is no escape.

i am just a tool in his arsenal — a weapon to be wielded when neededˎ abandoned when unwanted.

it's wasn't enough to just take them away from meˎ i was forced to witness every moment of their agonizing death. the painˎ the sufferingˎ the helplessness; i was made to experience it all.

love is not for meˎ i lost my heart quite some time ago.

some people just want to exist without really living. they go through the motions without truly connecting with life. they get stuck in a rut because it's easier than actually pursuing something real.

ohˎ circumcise my love for you. it's far too vapid and aimless.

i never asked for this responsibility. i never asked to be this person people should admire.

i won't let you escape. i don't want you to take what's mine.

maybe i'm not the weapon you created. maybe you created a monster instead.

there's this lingering sadness that i can't shakeˎ as if i'm still missing something.

they say that with immortal life comes an infinite amount of bliss. but in realityˎ immortality is nothing more than a glorified curse. an infinite life is not a giftˎ it is a prison from which there is no escape.

it's not the dying that worries meˎ it's the fear of never escaping the cycle of reincarnation. livingˎ dyingˎ being rebornˎ and starting it all over again.

i’m caught between trying to live my lifeˎ and trying to run from it.

my father is the worst man aliveˎ and i'm his favorite daughter.

i know that i have self—destructive behaviorsˎ but it's not something i can just change or turn off. it's like something primal deep within me is calling out for the destruction of myself.

but if you let me by your sideˎ your own beachˎ your own escapeˎ you'll learn to love yourself again.

what doesn't kill you leaves you strongerˎ is what they say. but what they don't tell you is that it also leaves you mentally weaker. it breaks youˎ destroys youˎ and chips away at the very foundation of who you are.

nothing's wrong.. i.. have you ever left this place 𖤠 ／ are you kidding me 𖤠 i can't leaveˎ and even if i wanted toˎ i don't have any other place to go to. this is my home now.

i know it's been a year since they diedˎ and that i should be over it by now, but i can't shake this feeling of grief. a part of me is still stuck in that moment they died.

i wanted to be you— but not like this.

where's your savior now 𖤠 porque ya no te siento.

taste what's leftˎ the fruit that you decay.

i wonder if i'm good enough 𖤠 i wonder if i'm too fucked up 𖤠 i wonder why i feel like i'm so fucking goddamn hard to love 𖤠

a pomegranate, dripping redˎ a sickening display. / i wonder if you heard me while i called out your name.

is it not enough that you've waltzed back into my life as if nothing bad has happened 𖤠 you made me believe you were deadˎ and i buried you deep within my heart. and now 𖤠 i must live with two corpses instead of one.

i’m caught between trying to live my lifeˎ and trying to run from it.

i hate you so much. so why 𖤠 why do i find myself thinking about you everyday 𖤠 it's sickening.

you don't know how long i've mourned you .ᐟ you don't get to waltz back into my life like your death meant nothing .ᐟ