Ellie Saige HAZBIN HOTEL MONTH!!! 🍾🍻🥂

Ninety-five days sober! Reminder that at 100 days I will be reverting this account back to a fandom-only account and stop plugging my sobriety so hard. I trust myself. I need you to trust me too.

Ninety-four days and one minute sober and keeping my mind occupied with Hazbin Hotel! Hurry up, Wednesday!

Ninety-three days sober. I have decided that I will stop making public posts about my sobriety at one hundred days. I have proven myself TO myself, and way more importantly, this account has not been turning out the way I want it to with so many sobriety posts. I came here for fandom, not bygones.

Ninety-two days sober.

Ninety-one days sober and feeling okay. Still goofy on the meds.

I’ve made it to ninety days sober! I don’t need alcohol, though, I’m dopey enough on my Topamax! 😴

Eighty-nine days sober! Watching Hazbin Hotel, which is probably a terrible idea for anyone else when it has so much drinking in it, but I can handle all that; it’s an adult cartoon.

Actually, the revamp of the @bsky.app logo is so clever because it’s 3D & puffy like a cloud in a blue sky! I’m sure it’s my medication talking & this was the point the entire time & I’m not special, but I feel proud & squishy & cute for coming up with that. I need to go to bed.

Eighty-eight days sober. Thinking very seriously about the future of my plush store with the holidays coming up. Because that’s what’s most important, duh. 🙄 (I don’t know if it actually is or not.)

Eighty-seven days sober. But you would have no idea because the medication I’m on makes me sleep constantly and say stupid shit and either have no emotion at all or cry like the world is ending.

Eighty-six days sober. I’m really doing the best I can. It’s not easy, but I know I can do this.

This is not a post about drinking.

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I’m going to be insufferable every week—no, every DAY—as each new episode of Hazbin Hotel comes out. I’ve already seen the first two episodes of season 2 an average of once each day, except for twice on premiere day for a total of FOUR times, and there’s no end in sight!

Eighty-five days sober.

Eighty-four days sober.

Eighty-three days sober. I have no mood today for some reason. I’m fine, but I just woke up flat and mood-less. Lovely; thanks, Topamax. Can’t be alcohol, I haven’t had any. We’ll take it one day at a time, I guess?

Eighty-two days sober. Started Topamax last night. I’m useless today. But at least I dragged my carcass out of bed to watch the first two episodes of Hazbin Hotel s2! Excellent start to the season.

Eighty-one days sober! Happy second birthday to my bunny, Rini! I can’t believe he’s TWO! We have so much celebrating to do!

Eighty days sober, and almost home from my vacation! I need a nap 😂 I can’t think straight because it’s raining. Hazbin Hotel season 2 is in two days, and my bunny’s birthday is tomorrow! This might be the busiest October I’ve ever had!

Seventy-nine days sober, on my last day of my birthday vacation! I go home tomorrow. This has been a fun trip, but I gotta get back home to my bunny. Can’t wait for season 2 of Hazbin Hotel to start dropping on the 29th!

Seventy-eight days sober and still having a good time on my vacation!

How come, in this the year of our Lord 2025, we are still letting pharmacists get away with pronouncing levetiracetam as “le-treece-uh-lam?”

Seventy-seven days sober and the trip continues!

Seventy-six days and one minute sober and still on vacation!

Seventy-five days sober! Trip time!

I haven’t changed my display name back yet because we are still celebrating my birthday…! The current plan is to change it once I have my birthday dinner with family.

Seventy-four days sober. The immense guilt & shame continue. I have done nothing in the last 24 hours to feel like this. I just need to keep doing my best and try to improve my body before I work out the issues with my spirit.

Seventy-three days sober. I am wracked by intense guilt & shame today & I don’t know why. I didn’t DO anything to warrant it, no drinking, no meltdowns, I’m not a bad friend, etc. My life DID change by someone else overnight for my health, that could be it. I don’t know. It’s fine! Really! 😔

Seventy-two days sober!

Why is it so hard for me to remember the names of Huntr/x from KPop Demon Hunters? There’s Zoey, the cutesy one. But I never FULLY remember the other two. The one with pink pigtails is… Mai? Miya? Min? MIRA. And the MAIN GIRL with the marks is… Yuki? Yumi? Ruki? …RUMI. I’m not trying to be so dense!

Seventy-one days sober and day two of the birthday convention!