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Feels like I’m starting from scratch again, but I can get water down and I can eat ice cream. and I’m starting to think some of my pain issues are actually back related.

I guess more doctor appointments in my future. sigh.

I’ll get through this but man am I tired of it.

well my ENT is fucking worthless. no answers to my issues, just tells me to take mucinex for the mucus that has claimed my throat and sinuses and they'll schedule me for a swallow test.

bitch I can't swallow anything NOW, what do you think I'm gonna be able to do in a few weeks?

roaming around what feels like the Barbarian basement in RE Requiem and some annoyances aside, Capcom definitely cooked here.

anything to distract from the throat and jaw problems right now.

I can’t wait to hit the point in RE9 where I’m like oh this is comfortable now, and I just run like an asshole from room to room, not afraid of whatever is lurking in the next one over because I know how to deal with it.

The puzzle structure is straight up RE2 remake and I’m here for it.

RE9 off to a good start. Switch 2 holding its own pretty well too. I am very bad at these games but I will persevere as my mental health demands it.

I’m under attack.

I grabbed RE7-9 too, time to have some spooky fun 👀

after months of waiting, life issues, cancer treatment, side effect complications, every day life stress, losing my mom, etc, GF and I finally saw Nine Inch Nails tonight in Tulsa.

just an incredible, energetic force of a concert. easily a top 3 show for me for sure.

this one will linger.

It’s on the list to get to for sure!

I broke down and bought a switch 2, I figure if I’m gonna be miserable for a bit I might as well play some games.

late to the party, but Mario Kart World is a lot of fun. completely took my mind off of the dumb health garbage for a while. excited to dig further into it.

oh I guess I'm doing an MRI today. okay

MRI being scheduled, new pain meds being sent out, referral to ENT in progress. covering all my bases to find out why I’m in so much pain.

I just want to be able to open my jaw properly and be able to eat and sleep normally again.

Dragon Ball Ending
Romantic Ageru

Dale cooper headed to twin peaks at 1130 February 24

It is happening, again.

A Katsuya Terada Zelda illustration. Link walks up some dark stairs

A Katsuya Terada Zelda illustration. Link looks at an ancient mural of a dream whale

A Katsuya Terada Zelda illustration. Link battles a shadow version of themselves

A Katsuya Terada Zelda illustration. Link comforts a wounded man in the sewers

The 40th anniversary of Zelda is all the excuse you need to submerge yourself in classic Katsuya Terada art.

doomscrolling as I wait for this pain attack to settle down while listening to This Mortal Coil’s “It’ll End in Tears” record because of course I am.

The Ataris cover reigns supreme by virtue of Don Henley not being there as well as Kris Roe being a pretty cool dude who understood the assignment.

Scans looked good, bloodwork looks pretty good. I’m being referred back to the ENT for the jaw issue, the throat issue I’m told will resolve.

I’ve got this. I got through radiation and chemo, I can manage this nonsense too.

throat still hurts, jaw hurts and I can't even open my mouth all the way right now. really looking forward to doc appts this week to complain about what I've been dealing with and hope for some answers / relief.

meanwhile work just kinda sucks all around.

I'll be okay, hopefully.

seeing news about a "memory shortage." it's not a shortage. billionaires who hate you hoarded it all so they could make everything worse and stupider and more expensive, just like with most shortages

my throat hurts, my jaw hurts, I’ve been demoted at work and most of the people I liked working with got laid off, and I’m terrified for my PET scan tomorrow.

everything kinda fucking sucks right now.

if you have a ring camera you are a child, terrified of the silhouette of a jacket hanging on a chair. you are lower than a worm to me. you have sold your soul to a devil that has offered you nothing in return

weekend activities have included eating tacos, listening to a bunch of sad bastard music and playing Bomberman.

I really like this Bomberman collection and would appreciate one with the TG16 games as well as the 32bit era games. I’ll buy all of them fuck it.

I hope Woke 2 is going to make things like this illegal

YouTube video by R.E.M. - Topic The Sidewinder Sleeps Tonite

I think about people making dumb AI music and being satisfied but the reality is that AI music will never be able to replicate the kind of human touch of details like Michael Stipe trying not to laugh from attempting to say “Dr. Seuss” properly.

YouTube video by R.E.M. - Topic Cuyahoga (2011 Remaster)

can’t sleep again. sigh.

my condolences to Naomi Klein's mentions.