Luna the Moth

I think one of the weirdest parts of Ketamine (besides how it just lays your whole psyche bare) is how every now and then you remember you have a skeleton and when you swallow you can feel it rattle

You did not visit me last time! I can confirm!

Like, when were entangled with someone on a psychic level somehow, the connecting thread is made of of time

Is this batshit? Maybe idk. But my brain has decided to believe it lol

was reading a sketchy article somewhere about how time is the thing with 3 dimensions and space just a side effect and it was mainly interesting to me because my brain has decided on its own (with evidence?? Idk, it’s an autistic brain it does what it wants) time is the thread binding us to people

Good thing to remember online right now is that everyone here is very emotionally dysregulated and dealing with that by posting

do you think the people who visit you when you’re on a Ketamine trip know they did

like, no one said anything to me, but a couple definitely not dead people came and visited like they were right in the room and it was fascinating

Update it was kind of wild lol

Today is Ketamine Day WOOT

I expect it to do nothing because I’m a redhead but maybe in a couple sessions when they can max out the dose lol

My brain let me have a sex dream that was fun for a whole THIRTY SECONDS before people started walking in and it stared going awry THIS IS PROGRESS

[obviously obviously I supplied them with supporting links and documentation. I haven’t passed out YET]

*yelling at my children who have come into my bedroom and found me high*

I didn’t ask you to come in, it is 9pm, I take hallucinogens to sleep, I AM IN MY OWN BED AND NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO JUDGE ME

*my children staring*

EVEN IF IT HAS TO DO WITH THE CIA, MORMONS, THE JKF ASSASSINATION, AND EPSTEIN

Building a pillow wall not because I don’t like my wife but because if she touches me the sweating will start again and I can’t find another shirt in the dark

perimenopause is fun because you wake up DRENCHED in sweat and then you’re cold because you’re all wet

also are all jobs as traumatic as teaching is? because I’m getting tired

is there a correct way to say, “good luck in class, I love you” to your child who has to go to lecture for the first time after her professor died

My colleague, who had stage four pancreatic cancer, was teaching as of just a week ago

I just got word he died

Fuck this system where you work until you literally drop dead

Just absolutely fuck it

TFW when your mom sends the dumb jokes to the family chat, but the smart jokes directly to you 😎😎

We do! Solids are hard for me lol, but I’ve gotten some before

❤️

There is so MUCH to scream about!!

*primal crying scream into the void of the universe*

Mine must be in my butt

🎶 my leg? she is spastic. my stomach? so gastric! I want to sleep! Jelova blast it. gonna do something drastic 🎶

So I don’t want to [redacted] but now I’m frozen here 😂

Ok bodies and brains are wild because ONE very funny thing happened and my SI is gone and I’m laughing and laughing, but the laughing made my ribcage spasm, so now I’m frozen in my thigh, rib and arm lmaoo

(I will stay alive to protect my kids as long as I can but FUCK IT)

Like what is the fucken point of mortality.

Fuck it

ANYWAY I AM NOT OK MAN

And my leg? Completely spastic now. Literally seized up. Cannot move.

Also just found out my colleague with stage 4 pancreatic cancer who was teaching my daughter’s class (because fuck America where you have to work for health insurance) had to leave the university suddenly

So the wife (me, I’m the wife) FUELED BY ADRENALINE literally ran upstairs and found her wife on the ground because apparently the new meds they put her on make her need to pee constantly and also make her light headed and she tripped

Now her knee is super bruised and swollen (blood thinners!)