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but when i die， i want it to hurt. i want to get beaten up. i want to hold on until i'm thrown off and everything ends. until that happens， i want to hope again. and i want it to hurt. because that means it meant something.

i feel my ancestors in my blood. i am a body of people that are asking not to be forgotten.

i love you， i love you， i love you. we're soulmates， you and i， but that doesn't mean it works. my soul can't bear to be without yours but that doesn't mean it works.

where you go， i go. what you see， i see. i know i'd never be me without the security of your loving arms keeping me from harm.

the bloodlust， i lean on the 'lust' side. you get close， and you pretend like that blood smell is a crazy aphrodisiac.

to heal is to touch with love that which was previously touched by fear.

my soul and yours are the same， you appear in me， i in you， we hide in each other.

but ... other self ... i want to be with you forever ... i don't care if i never find my memories ...

i remembered what had been circling in me: i am beautiful. i am full of love. i am dying.

memories do not always soften with time; some grow edges like knives.

i understand. i understand it better than anyone else. this is my mistake ... that i have destroyed our future with my own hands. an ending like this is the best punishment. alone in a world without you ... where i can't even die.

time is a funny thing. nothing seemed to change，but suddenly，everything is different.

but how many times… have i wished for that dream， anyway?

rescue failed. he died.

do you love me enough that i may be weak with you? everyone loves strength， but do you love me for my weakness? that is the real test. do you love me stripped of everything that might be lost， for only the things i will have forever?

every time i close my eyes，i see you. i’ve always seen you. even if you tell me you don’t feel the same. even if i walk away knowing there’s not a chance in hell of us ever being something，i’ll wait for you.

falling in love with a human will only bring you misfortune， i know that well.

i cared for others all my life. and still i was wrong.

so i sit and wait like an abandoned dog waiting for its owner. impatient， restless， and forever waiting.

i was carnivorous about love， i ate love to the ankles.

when i love， i love: wholly， thoroughly， completely， drowning in everything. every glance can be a conversation， eyes just playing and saying what needs to be said. i want you. i want all of you.

i'm not a puppet anymore. i’ll take my life back， even for just a moment.

a scared boy with a gun ... sound familiar?

should the day ever come that we are not together， you will continue to shine like gold in my memories.

never really been alive before， i always lived in my head.

… had i taken one wrong step， i may very well have turned out to be just as hideous as him.

i kissed her until there was more happiness inside me than sadness.

you're all the colors in one... at full brightness.

my dear， find what you love and let it kill you. let it drain you of your all. let it cling onto your back and weigh you down into eventual nothingness. let it kill you and let it devour your remains.

please， god! i’m begging you， please don’t take my little brother away!