Dolly Strawberry

Okay, you did NOT have to attack me like that!!! 😭

Ah, yes...*stares into a void* What was I doing again???

I wanna eat something...I'm hungry.
But I can't...I gotta wait.
How long? That's a question that I don't have the answer to!

Twitter is for the weak!!!

I know I said that I wouldn't do any live action...but if Disney offers Lottie from Princess and the Frog...I'm taking it. Doubt they will (they'll go for a big-name celebrity, but I can dream, dammit!!!).

USPS, what the hell are y'all doing??? 😂 Why is my package, that was supposed to arrive like 5 days ago going back and forth between distributions? Are y'all having difficulty? 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

I'm having trouble sleeping! 🥲 Yay anxiety!

I hate it. Daylight savings was used to conserve energy during WWI, but I don't think it's needed now. 🤦🏻‍♀️

The issue for me is Zendaya. I like Zendaya, don't get me wrong! But I, personally, think she's being OVER used. 😭 There are OTHER actresses out there! Zendaya isn't the only one.
On the plus side at least it's not Awkwafina 🤢. Can't stand her!

There was some music outside of my house and I'm not even sure what that was!!! 😭
Like guitar plucking!!!
What was that?!?
It lasted for like...five minutes!!! 🤨

Searches for purpose in helping others, reading literature and philosophy or exploring the world to varying degrees of success.

Ruminates on how their life would be if they did not grow up with a mind that is their worst enemy or on a chaotic environment.

Dreams of a happy and joyful life, but then reminds themselves that this life is not possible.

Hates themselves, but also admires their own ability to survive which they did not think they would have when they were younger.

Is constantly told that they are 'wiser than their age' or feels like they have lived multiple lives.

Sometimes I still think about it...I just want to be free. From both my life and my mind.

A child who grew up suicidal often becomes an adult who...

Did not expect to make it this far and hence has no idea what to make of their life or what they want to do.

Bears an unseen rage towards the world and themselves for their pain that eats them up inside.

Feels either too much or nothing at all.

Oh...yes. As someone who has been s*icidal since 7 years old, I feel almost all of this...I get angry easily because I feel hopeless.

Anyway, story time!
When I worked one of my old jobs, the power went out and I worked during the night.
Manager told me to continue working like "WTF? I can't SEE to do anything!" 😂
Thankfully, I work during the day at my current job! However, the area I work has no windows...I'll be screwed! 😂

Nyctalopia is NO joke. 😭 It's one of the reasons why I have nyctophobia! 😭
The only difference is, most people with nyctophobia are afraid of what lurks in the dark, and though that's true for me too, I'm also afraid of running into a wall or tripping on something on the floor. 😭

Meet the actress who voices my favorite Disney Princess which was my BABY film. 😭 I feel as if that was my ONE chance to meet her, and my previous employer ruined it. And I feel that they ruined cons for me in general...after that experience, I haven't been as into them as I used to be. 3/3

Only for them to decline my request 2 weeks before the event. And it was the con where Paige O'Hara was a guest! That f**king ruined me. I've been to cons after that incident, but IDK, they aren't as big for me anymore, and I think it's because I REALLY wanted to...2/3

Comic Con is coming up, but...I have no desire to go. 😭 I used to love it, I still do in a way, but I guess I'm not in the right state of mind to wanna go anymore...I kinda blame my old job. The job where I asked off 6 months before an event, got ready for it, bought tickets and EVERYTHING...1/3

Wait...what if I yell at you to get your attention because you didn't hear me the first 12 times??? 🤔

But it was the way my mother worded the message the first time! "Make a note to remind me to give mom her pills." 2/2

A drawing of my grandmother as a drug addict telling my mother (her daughter) "I need deh peels, mah child!!!"

Apologizing to my grandmother ahead of time, but this was too funny NOT to post. 😂
Mother told me to write a note for her, telling her to not forget my grandmother's (her mother) medication. So...obviously, my smart ass did this...😂😂😂
My grandma is NOT a druggie or anything like that. 1/2

A horribly done traditional sketch of Fred (Freaky Fred) from "Courage the Cowardly Dog"

THIS is why I don't draw traditionally anymore...

But unlocking everyone's nightmares, I have.
Such a sad state of affairs on my behalf.
Though I couldn't help but doodle this flapdoodle.
I did it because I'm simply...
NAUGHTY.

#couragethecowardlydog #freakyfred #traditionalsketch

I accidentally sat on Bisou's toys today.
I jumped up from them, she looked at me like "Bitch." Then proceeded to check on her toys like "Are you okay?!?" 😂😂😭
I've never been insulted and humored at the same time before. 🤣🤣

Might as well shoot my shot. 😂

Things nobody knows about me: - Being yelled at makes me shut down. - I don't open up to anyone unless I'm close to you. - Music is my therapy. - When I love, I love hard. - I distance myself from everyone when life gets tough. - I put other people feelings before my own. - I give too many chances. - I am an overthinker. - I take every word and everything to heart. - I remember more negative things said to me than positive. - I just want to be loved. Author: Unknown

Yep...
Even if someone is not yelling AT me, I'll still shut down. I hate that I'm this way though...

Even though I don't want Dolly to be my legal name, I know that they'll flip their shit before I can even tell them what name feels like me. I guess I'll have to grin and bear my real name until I feel safe enough to be able to embrace what feels like me. 3/3

I wanna change it so badly (not to Dolly though, Dolly is my acting alias ONLY), but I'm not in a safe situation to be able to change my name. In fact I can't even tell my parents that I wanna legally change my name to this other name. They've flipped their shit over Dolly Strawberry! 2/3

Has anyone (who identifys as the gender they were assigned to at birth) ever felt as though their given name isn't their name?
I've never felt like my real name. As much as I've TRIED to like it, I can't. And it's not just because I was bullied with it, I've never felt like my real name! 1/3

I'm not in the loop. What did Hudson do? /GenQ

Wilted Flower: I love my mother, but I don't like her. I wish I did, I wish we were best friends. But we are not. Her words cut like knife, I drown in her expectations. I was never a perfect daughter, but I tried to be. I tried and tried until I couldn't be. I had to choose myself. I had to get out She says she loves me, but she despises me.

Oh...yep this about sums it up between me and both of my parents...mainly my father.