🔞Ruby

was in vc with friends and they were thirsting over transformers characters, meanwhile I was getting excited about a large flock of grackles outside my window

I have a somewhat silly secret and I wanna confide with somebody about it so bad, but I don't know who, so it will continue to drive me insane

Idk where I'm going with this tbh. Surrounded by friends who are in long lasting relationships, getting married soon, and I can't help feeling left out in that aspect. I'm gonna be starting my own life when I graduate in like a year and I want that too eventually. Idk, I'm lonely and I'm scared

Am I gonna keep hurting people by having to tell them that the feelings just vanished? Do I need to suck it up next time around? It's a very suffocating feeling and I don't want to do that to myself or other people.

it has happened with every relationship (if you can even call them that). I thought maybe it was for other reasons but this is a reoccurring thing since my first one. I long for closeness but I fear that I'll not be able to have it. Will it keep happening? Do I just need the right person?

so I found out that I'm aromantic recently, cool, that's ok. The way I experience it is that I do feel romantic attraction, but it just goes out like a light switch was turned off one day. Nothing to spur it, no in-between feelings. Just poof, gone, and replaced by this feeling of dread and anxiety

ok I know I said no venting on this account but I need somewhere to ramble about something and I guess here will have to do lol. It's nothing heavy, just thoughts and fears about a part of myself. So vent incoming below I guess

I should start yapping here more tbh

Just started posting and the bots are already appearing! Go away!!!!

Read an incredible Mirage/V2 fanfic the other day that changed the trajectory of my life forever

Alongside an NSFW account I'll probably use this space to post stuff that doesn't necessarily belong on main, like suggestive things or just dumb shit. No heavy vents tho, this will not be a vent space for the foreseeable future. I might complain about a thing from time to time tho lol