Verafied Siphonophorean

pictured: my grandfather on may 1st.

as i like to say, the may day parade is my pride, and pride is my may day. unfortunately, its not true for him: the mars symbol is for iron industries not for gay men.

lets say that this win was not fun and games

transition win: not being recognized by my 98 year old grandmother while others are recognized readily
transition loss: having to explain who i am, basically coming out 20 times in a row with a 50% success rate of it being parsed (but then only remembered for the length of a short conversation)

i live between two metro stations so i can get off at both so youd think i would never miss my stop when going home after midnight but ................

this is really the 𝔢𝔳𝔦𝔩 of both the hegelian historicist project, and d+gs metaphilosophy - they are theories that absorbs all other into themselves, and so becomes impossible to escape :(

ah to have an enormous love for theories that elevates Outsideness; the Sense of Unmapped Chaos--- that which dissolves your previous conceptualizations and forces the creation of the New but yet you are so stuck in this model that you actually end up unable to attune to the unmapped.

my brain really broke back when i was 18 and read about (de-/re-)territorialization for the first time and now everything i experience goes through a mental sieve that turns the chaos of sense into examples of systemic convergences and dissolutions

mening som i, "kan vi uttala oss meningsfyllt runt tinget i sig? går det att förstå för oss, på riktigt, som vad det faktiskt är?", nihilism, då, som "vi kan inte förstå tinget i sig"

framförallt ville några nå mer stabil metafysik än korrelationism (meillassoux et al) genom att försöka hitta teorier där man når världen direkt i sig, medan andra (såsom brassier) vände sig till nihilism (varför är vi så rädda för avsaknad av mening i tinget i sig?).

några år sedan var det mycket debatt runt exakt det här runt när spekulativ realism hade sitt moment, som bestod ungefär av olika sätt att kritiskt förhålla sig till "korrelationism" (idén att vi enbart kan ha kunskap om medvetandets koppling till världen snarare än världen i sig)

hahha 😭😭

ok bra jag som queer (som i paraplybegreppet) och femme (som i lesbiskhet) blev lite orolig hehe. men ja det är ganska tragiskt hur 90% av feminism idag bara är exakt det.

left hand är bästa av henne dock, otrolig bok, särskilt för tiden den kom ut.

also scifi är verkl min genre. behöver hålla tillbaka så mkt när folk ber om rekommendationer för att inte wall of text:a 😭😭

tror de flesta skulle rekommendera the dispossesed. jag tyckte om always coming home

vad är ens en queerfem??

you gotta rev it up like you do a chainsaw

concept: gasoline powered magic wand. powerful and portable. for the outdoorsy lady.

forget about gaydars. its time for gayger counters (for detecting more ominous queers)

as someone who very unfortunately works in tech i am sorry to say i am a proponent of the kodak calender

re: image above. this is the thing with these systems: they make the seemingly abstract tangible. but hasnt it always been tangible? hobbes leviathan as the body of the nation, composed of real flesh.

did you know that the etymology of the word "corporation" comes from "to form into a body"?

you cannot even touch it, this thing worth millions, this thing through which choices are made that determines which lives are ruined, and which are saved.

more evil chaos magic is: building a system for a business. you take abstract fake corporate business rules and logic and reify those into an ephemeral but real digital space in which whole lifetimes of labor are spent on managing time itself through time reporting, invoicing project hours, & so on

joining reclaim pride stockholm means access to endless supplies of fika (youre not a real revolutionary pride unless u have multiple hobby bakers in your org. whats that quote again....? "its not my revolution unless i can eat fika to it"?)

att veronica maggio är veronica maggio at home pga hon e smått medioker as is?

"community" doesnt exist unless we conjure it using the black magic called Place, Aesthetics, and Concepts

organizing community events is like the greatest chaos magic there is: you create a real thing out of nothing, you reify an energy into a place, and everything just makes itself work because everyone there needs it to work.

the only backside is that it destroys your psyche with exhaustion

still reading "inventing the renaissance" but this time with live harp music in the background

sheep; rune stone gets its own small square plot of land in the suburbs as if it was also a house; best dumpling soup of stockholm

wrong! renaissance florence was the only real democratic republic. nothing beats killing all nobles and then choosing 9 men at random every 3 months to be locked in a tower and make all decisions.

blir verkligen galen av att se hur mkt folk man tkr är rimliga följer/gillar deras saker