kiel

first meeting with my therapist since early February let’s see how this goes 😬

have to*

as someone of Asian descent I’ve chosen to ignore it ❤️ if I get sick and die I’ll have died doing what I love

I haven’t go through my finals week with no hard podcast ughbfghbbghcg

I am so tired I reallyyyyyy don’t want to study for the next two weeks

this was a big moment for me I have been wanting to fix this for so long like maybe 2 years atp and I finally was like “wait a minute I actually have thread and a concept for how I want to fix this HEYO” and now look how cute he is !!!! I fixed the strawberry on his head that was falling off

ur look is so cool I love ur hair

literally sitting here making myself angry by going “AND ANOTHER THING-l”

weirdest feeling rn of being like chill and so whatever while also simultaneously raging to a fire whenever I think of another angle

also idk wtf a perfume costs I’m not even looking to smell rich I just don’t want to be stinky 😭

I really do sometimes internalize the “maybe u wouldn’t have this problem if you didn’t spend all your money on food and beverage” and I have to knock myself back into realizing like yk what sustenance can be a valid expense (but I could eat out a little less maybe)

if I started actually tracking my expenses I think I would feel so much less anxious abt this but like ughbdjfbfj

I’m trying not to invest too much into like unnecessary things because I’m about to be so broke and jobless in a few months but i really want to get a nice perfume and false lashes and a new clothing style

also hearing everyone say discord for “who should go home tonight” and changing it to a top 2 lip sync LOL

things rupaul has done this season indicating that she loves discord addams soooo much:

- the runway giggling
- helping discord with her walk this episode
- giving her a thumbs up
- remembering that she’s been watching discord’s audition tapes for YEARS
- starting off the season with that punk look

kicking my feet up in the air watching how much rupaul loves discord addams

LOL tyty I’m learning to not take it personally even tho it is soooo frustrating 😾 + after talking w some people at the company I also realized like erm actually I don’t even want to be on this team so it all worked out 😸

in my happy place (repairing one of my stuffed animals that was falling apart in my bed and watching les mis)

when I was younger I used to try roasting my dad and he got his feelings hurt by it because I wasn’t good at roasting so I was just straight up insulting him 😭 but ever since I was young I always knew I wanted to read someone down

idk if doja cat is culturally disgraced or not but this new album is so good so many like puss dance pop songs

I also don’t want to see Nini in the top 4 tho like I really dgaf abt her (but she has some good amazing outfits I will give her that)

as of rn I feel like my new predictions are Myki, Nini, Juicy, and Jane. my heart is rooting for Discord tho. and I would be glad yet deeply shocked if Darlene won

I think I’m so much happier that we got flop Athena content than having her slay everything and get into the top 4 tho

we are now down to 2/4 and I have no faith in Kenya 😭 love u girl

update didn’t even get an interview LMFAO

not even one like y’all really said “I’m good I’ll pass” 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

for the past 2 months straight I have had this insatiable craving for noodle soups and I’m literally soupmaxxing almost every single day and it’s driving me insane I don’t even want to eat soup anymore but every time I go to the kitchen I’m like “oh guess it’s soup time!” free me 😭

but anyways my reign as baby of the family (currently a 21 year streak) has come to an end 🙂‍↕️ so happy to pass the torch to that little kiddo 🥰 if u do prayers please send it to them I am wishing them all of the best health possible!!!! they have wanted this for so long I am just overjoyed :DDD

list of things that happened today:

- mild fight w my best friend of 9 years whom I deeply love like family
- cousin announced she’s pregnant (after years of trying and planning!!! so excited for her!!!)
- other friend of 9 years called me naive and emotionally stunted while I was seeking advice? 😭

okay guys I am setting a reward for myself tonight. if I do 30 (very achievable I’m just whining and procrastinating) measly pages of reading tonight then I get to nerdmax and watch my silly cartoons while playing my silly video game :3