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I recorded my reading Zoe Leonard’s “I Want a President” in Japanese and made a piano backing 🎹🫀🪽✨

‘I want to know why we started learning somewhere down the line that a president is always à clown:’

ゾーイ・レナードの『I Want a President』の朗読を録音して、ピアノの伴奏をつけました🎹🫀🪽✨

『私たちにとって、なぜ、いつから、大統領はピエロになったのか知りたい。』

no tf it didn't

certified classic i remember my spanish teacher in 6th grade showing us this

a job would fix me

okay i do feel better now

im on these damn mones the tears should be flowing

its so repetitive. what do i need to change? can i change? am i truly stuck?

i face so much rejection and i dont know what to do about it and im upset that its upsetting me so much

why cant i cry?

because whats the fucking point? i dont deserve it, and i have nothing to offer any how

i just want to be loved, prioritized, or i dont even fucking know. i really want to not want for any of these things

all i see ahead for me is an empty death bed and silent funeral

i feel so fucking helpless and hopeless

people i should have treated better, endeavors i should have seen to more diligently, paths i should have taken

i look back and all i see is a long long line of mistakes

its mostly my fault. i know.

why am i so undesirable. so fucked up. so alone

i havent felt this low in such a long long time

i want to just cry but i cant. i need the catharsis but it wont find me

im back so you know what that means

if im back here u just know shits goin bad

noo iam getting too old for some of this shit

surely, this is the solution...

but i can control my weight, no? i cant control my blackness or others phobias etc etc. i just need to loosen whatever variables between myself and finally someone will find me good enough to put a ring on

the trouble is i want to be loved romantically and i can hardly think of the obstacles that lie between is mostly to do with weight and idk other easy targets

idk ive been hedging on the lean times ahead sort of solving this whole over eating problem for me but lord its starting to feel like my long seating bi issues are really rearing their head again

just like... 40ibs, i need that much off

the ol emotional landscape aint doing too hot today princess

i love my gorls