He repeats that name, and he's not sure why. His hands are held together as if he's praying. Maybe he is. Maybe he's praying that this is some sort of sick prank he's pulling on him. That maybe his sense of humor got severely fucked up over the years and he thought this was funny as hell.
31.10.2025 15:04 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
Empty and sad. What a fun combination.
31.10.2025 15:04 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
Thoughts are for people who are having a baaaaaad time.
31.10.2025 14:28 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
You know.
For some reason he didn't consider that reaction.
I guess not socialising with people properly in years does something to you. Who knew.
31.10.2025 13:49 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
God. He's just like his mother.
31.10.2025 13:12 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
this stupid loser has no idea his life is about to get better and he's about to learn how to enjoy shit for the first time in almost two years. this stupid fucking idiot has no idea he will start finding joy in hobbies he didnt think would ever cross his mind again. What a dumb idiot lmao
31.10.2025 12:43 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
It's always better to mourn with a song, he said.
Atleast then you get something out of it.
31.10.2025 12:06 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
my curse bearers be doing anything except breaking the curse
31.10.2025 11:32 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
thereโs a spear through my heart, all I feel is pain. if life is so fair why do roses have thorns.
31.10.2025 10:56 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
... you're the sweetest person I've ever met in my entire stupid fucking life, Mako.
Are you sure you don't deserve better...?
31.10.2025 10:17 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
Why did you expect me to make a mess? I am quite good at not making a mess if I want to!
31.10.2025 09:36 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
No one's around right? Yeah.
...
You take off your shades and rub your eyes with your sleeves.
We're good now.
31.10.2025 08:59 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
He's attempting something so futile and why? So he can try and make himself feel better? So he can spend just a bit more time with him before he has to leave? So he can feel the touch of his hand one last time?
31.10.2025 08:26 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
His tone was suddenly a lot more chipper. Again, what else is he supposed to do? He steps closer, like he was told to. He wants to get closer, he wants to grab him and spin him around in a stupid little hug like he used to as a kid but he CAN'T do that because that's not HIM anymore.
31.10.2025 07:48 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
'' This was a BAD idea, Mako! I-''
He feels outright sick. He's still crying. His voice cracks. His vision is blury. He refuses to look at Mako as tears keep spilling down his face.
''-- *I* am a bad idea! ''
31.10.2025 07:48 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
God. He's just like his mother.
31.10.2025 07:06 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
You're being a fucking bastard to yourself for having basic human emotions and insecurities, you gotta try and let that shit go before it hurts you more.
31.10.2025 06:27 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
'' WHY am I HERE. ''
Oh. His voice is suddenly louder, and while it definitely sounds more frustrated it doesn't sound neccesarily angry? He clenches his fists,and his whole body tenses up.
'' Why am I of all people HERE when I SHoULDn'T bE- ''
His voice cracks.
31.10.2025 05:51 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
He didn't want to believe it was just infatuation. It couldn't be just infatuation. Oh my god. It couldn't be. It wasn't. That's why he...
...
He looked away, paused, and exhaled sharply. He forced his gaze back towards Mako.
He owes him this vulnerability.
31.10.2025 05:14 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
Just Charlie and his own corpse, loved more with the life out of it than it ever was alive.
31.10.2025 04:39 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
...
{ He holds out his fist to him.
Covered in bruises, unhealed cuts, dirt and bandages. His gloves are see-through at this rate.
He holds out his pinky. }
promise.
31.10.2025 04:08 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
Naaah, thinking... thinking is a slippery slope, y'know? if you're not careful you'll slide into thinking about sad, miserable stuff, and who has the time for allat?
31.10.2025 03:32 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
me when i drank a little bit of alcohol and was a bit mean to people so i have to go to hell
31.10.2025 02:56 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
It's always better to mourn with a song, he said.
Atleast then you get something out of it.
31.10.2025 02:20 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
dont worry broskies im gonna rescue your ass because im 14 and a suicide mission is healthy for the mind
31.10.2025 01:41 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
... A drink with cookie dough sounds like the type of indulgence they warn you against in the bible and *i want it*.
31.10.2025 01:03 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
Hello, Apollo!! How's it ha-- I shouldn't ask that!! Whattup!!!
31.10.2025 01:03 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
youre being so
nice
and youre purposefully letting me get closer to you
im just not sure what you
want exactly
31.10.2025 00:25 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
the reason more people smoke weed is because weed is lvl 2 which means you only have to finish week 7 on friday night funkin to smoke it
rolling it however requires you to no hit sans
30.10.2025 23:48 โ ๐ 1 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
I am so overwhelmed! Constantly! 24/7! There's got to be a cure for this! My existence can't be just. PAIN, right?!
30.10.2025 23:11 โ ๐ 0 ๐ 0 ๐ฌ 0 ๐ 0
