Merryallnighter

Looking at which ever artist agrees to go to Vienna now that Yle couldn't find a single vertebra from their tax funded HQ.

A chocolate box discarded on the ground with a single chocolate peeking out

Witnessed a tragedy on my way to work today.

I also bought myself something I've wanted for years as a birthday present, can't wait for it to arrive 🤭

Profile drawing of the Beast holding a rose between blue theater curtains

I've had an on-off headache/migraines again for the whole week 😔

But! This year I actually did something on my birthday ✨
We had tickets to see the Beauty and the Beast at Tampere, and it was fantastic. If you have a chance to still grab tickets I 100% recommend it.

The most prevalent advice seems to be to resign, drop everything and dissappear for a couple of years but that's like the exact opposite of what I want 😩

Good news is that I have less sleeping issues than before.
Happy to take any tips that don't include resigning and exercising.

I feel so burned out I'd laugh if it wasn't so frustrating and making my life so difficult
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Everything feels super hard and my brain keeps checking out. My memory is awful. I'm incredibly slow with everything.

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Truly 😅 Yeah I hope this wuold pretty much be it..

What caused the sudden crippling fatique in the first place? Who knows!

Is something else going to come up in the future? Who knows that either!

Get depression:
Get meds which help, and bonus(!), they help a bit with the fatigue but I'm still tired.

Now that those are taken care of I'm pretty sure it's just burn out (for now). Did that also partly help cause the depression? Did an undiagnosed ADD get me on track to burn out?

I desperately try different supplements, different doses of meds, exercise like weights etc. Results vary but nothing really helps.

Another set of blood tests:
Low iron again. Maybe it's an absorption issue? Try liquids. Iron goes up again, above recommendations. But fatique is still there.

I get super lucky and switch to a position where I can work 50% and I don't need to get up as early. This makes life a bit easier and working more manageable.

I'm able to do some things on my free time.

Went to have blood tests after a year of not "getting used to" it:
Severe anemia, eating iron for 6 months. Fatique is no longer painful but still there.

Next get an ADD diagnosis and meds:
Bonus! ADD meds help me stay awake after work and on weekends, fatigue is a bit better but still there.

I realise that it sounds like I've had a bunch of different health issues going on one after the other, so I wanted to write down a simple timeline here.

Started an 8-4:
immidiate painful and crippling fatique. Expected it to be a "getting used to waking up early" issue.

a white cat with its paws up in the air is sitting on the ground ALT: a white cat with its paws up in the air is sitting on the ground

On a brighter note was given migraine medication to test out 🙏🙏🙏😭

(*I read the symptoms, of which I have almost all of them, and made the test, in which I scored in the upper third making it to the "serious burn out" section. Also I've known it for a long time, I just didn't think it could be actual Burn out - burn out and not just some general weariness.)

I think I'm in a burn out.*

Not like from something that's happened recently, just as in what's left after medicating the other things, and having kind of struggled for so long with no sick leaves when I def. would've needed it.

Now I just need to figure out what to do about it 🤔

I have so many nice summer clothes I'd love to wear 😌

If only we'd have summer

It's so gorgeous!

Huutelen täälläki et ois yks ylimääränen Desulippu myynnissä alkuperäseen hintaan! Jos jonkun kaverin koiran tuttu on vielä ilman

a lottery machine that says lotto on the bottom ALT: a lottery machine that says lotto on the bottom

I have so many little things that needs to be taken care of my brain feels like one of those lotto machines where is spits out a random item every now and then while the others keep rattling in the background

How I feel whenever I emerge back to the public eye from a freelance project

Nauroin (hiljaa) ääneen

Just heard my favorite ramen place went bankrupt and I'm inconsolable 🥲

Ah we are in that "two weeks of summer in May" period. Let's enjoy it because you never know if we get an actual summer at all or not 👍

I fully support YLE withdrawing from the competition if that country is participating next year #Eurovision #Euroviisut

By refusing to take any action EBU is actually creating an even bigger divide when people just keeping getting more and more frustrated with them.
'United by music' is a joke at this point.

Last year I did boycott Eurovision, this year I wanted to see & support Erika.
I will most likely boycott next year again, until certain something is kicked out. The double standard is baffling and the results this year felt incredibly disingenuous. It wasn't enjoyable.

I ain't mad, because I like Austria, I think it's a worthy winner 👌

Erika did us proud, and her performance will surely be remembered 🎤

But to quote the Disney fates: What The Hell Just Happened?