Mari Moving Ever Onward

it'll be good for you, i promise!

you should find something more fulfilling to latch onto than fake internet numbers

could you be any more annoying

ABSOLUTELY intentional. thank you horse girl game

LMAO

😭 there are some days where i'm more willing to accept this universal truth than others. it's a hard pill to swallow for somebody scared to make contact with anybody ...........

and no, getting into fights with internet strangers doesn't count

i think the universal, undeniable truth of the human experience that we introverts always try to pretend doesn't exist is that talking to new people is important and Very Good for you

stars that will never cross.

things might not be perfect, maybe they never are for anybody. but i can still vividly remember a time where i had no choice but to watch the seasons change from behind a window, so even getting to see the world turn with nothing between me and it feels like a blessing.

all of a sudden, even something as simple as taking a step all by myself seemed like a privilege i had to hang onto with all my heart. i cherished every moment i got to spend watching the sky without anything separating me from it. i tried not to feel like anything in my life was a given.

a lot of that comes from my experience going without even these things that i'd otherwise had taken for granted. i spent a year and some change holed up, barely able to make the distance from my room to the kitchen without assistance. i was forced to watch the sky from behind my window.

after braving a rough storm, there's always this period afterwards where even the smallest blessings gain this renewed vibrance. i've always tried my best to hang onto that feeling- even on the worst days there are shreds of hope and love that i try to appreciate

the sky is so beautiful after it rains

anyway, good luck out there!

then again, when isn't it?

i only lament that the ending was messy.

lots of changes this year!

i've watched you slowly sink further and further into hate. i'm proud of myself for outgrowing you, even if it was difficult at first.

there is no force in this universe capable of making me let go of hope

just one thing though- you don't get to say you'll miss me.

there are parts of me that you helped put together that i don't think i can ever fully get rid of. parts of me that are too close to my heart to ever really want to get rid of- so even though you've hurt me, i don't think i can ever really bring myself to hate you.

maybe i'll get better tomorrow.

feeling weird and sad all day

totally fucked up my curry for this week. i was in the kitchen crafting Suspicious Stew

the other problem? you were So unemployed!! the fact you never had to work to survive would become abundantly clear in far too many instances.

it was innocuous at first. but it seemed to be indicative of a deeper issue with being unable to challenge and adjust your own perspective.

i never liked how desperate you were to always be right. i wanted to let you know it was okay to be wrong sometimes- admitting fault and growing from your mistakes and misconceptions is an important part of the human experience. or so i'm told