Salem - TTRPG Person

Ah Christmas. The one time of year I can lay in bed at 9.30am and hear absolutely nothing outside. No shops, no cars, no pedestrians. Just silence as if I am the last person in the world.

Yesterday was alot of fun! Met some amazing people. I should have taken pictures with everyone! Kicking myself

All dressed for Dragonmeet. Looking forward to it and meeting peeps.

Wait... It's Dragonmeet week already. I am not mentally prepared haha. Still got five days of work to push through though.

Need someone to run a campaign so i can be a player for a bit. Will pay you back in bad jokes and cliches?

Ohhh you are going? Awesome! Will have to meet up!

How is it nearly 2 weeks until Dragonmeet? I haven't even got my clothes sorted yet... I need to redye my hair too as well

I need to remember this app exists xD

Just had to do that facial scan to verify that I am an adult... I have to try it three times as twice it said it wasn't sure if the picture was of a face.... Thanks for that xD

Now VtM: That is enough to make my blood boil... Though perhaps that is the point.

World building is always fun. Just sitting there and writing facts and making maps. You know half of it will never come up. But it is still a fun and engaging experience

Had the pleasure of playtesting 'Beyond the Veil' today over at UKGE (by @wrenegadestudios.bsky.social with the amazing @sanguisblue.bsky.social Defo one to look out for when the kickstarter goes live in October and also to add onto the AP pile for @misadventurersl.bsky.social !!!

Birmingham bound. Thankfully got the right train

I should probably prepare for tomorrow and work out travel times haha

How is it almost Friday already? When I am off work for the week, everything goes so quickly haha!

So yeah... I ended up doing it and booking tickets to go to UKGE on Friday. First ever time going to a convention... I am sure it will be fine!

So I just learned the Birmingham Anime and Gaming Con is on the 9th-10th of August.

It is my Birthday on the 8th and I am not working those weeks. Might be worth a shout for an adventure. Wonder who else is going!

HedgehawkUK - Twitch Sunday Game Time

It is Sunday! Someone to chill out with some games. I am going to be spending Easter playing my favourite space conquest game Stellaris and trying hunt down some more achievements and not become evil in the process. Come join, chill and chat!

www.twitch.tv/hedgehawkuk

HedgehawkUK - Twitch Sunday Game Time

It is Sunday! Someone to chill out with some games. This morning I am playing Crusader Kings 3, starting in the Island of Ireland and probably butchering alot of the Irish Language. Come join, chill and chat!

www.twitch.tv/hedgehawkuk

So I think I am going to make it a goal to go the UK Games Expo this year as it's in the weekend, and I am sure I can find it easily enough via public transport. Book tickets when I get paid at the end of the month and then book transport... I got this. I think.

HedgehawkUK - Twitch Sunday Game Time

It is Sunday and so it is time to play some games. we are going to start by playing some Schedule 1, which is some kind of drug empire game I have never played before, and then perhaps lean into some Pokemon TCG or Stellaris

www.twitch.tv/hedgehawkuk

HedgehawkUK - Twitch Saturday Morning Balatro

It is Saturday Morning, and i am deciding to sit down and play some Balatro to try and 'relax' Come join and hang out and laugh at my bad luck with the game

www.twitch.tv/hedgehawkuk

... But I know how I feel now feels right (give or take fifty feet)

Anyway thanks for getting to the end of the thread if you made it this far. If you did you are a true hero... So what now? Do I get a gift basket? Is there a party or something I need to do? XD

But last night I reached the breaking point and told my partner. They are extremely supportive and I decided to message a few friends to gauge their reaction and get advice. But this is who I am. This is where I feel comfortable. I might not have all the correct terms to describe how I feel...

... I don't have the bravery to tell my family that I now use different pronouns. I can see the reactions in my mind. This has been a rollercoaster, being autistic and trying to explore your deepest emotional recesses is hard. Trying to find words and sort through hard logic.

So in a nutshell. I guess this is me coming out as Non-Binary. Pronoun wise I am going to start with He/They and as I get more comfortable with it, shift towards They/Them. I do have a new name for myself, but that's for a later date. For now I am just coming out online...

Where abouts I am in that middle I don't know yet. Saying that I don't conform to either gender seems to make the most sense to me. It's where I feel happiest when saying it in my heart. It doesn't help that I am still learning about all of this at the lovely age of 31...

These past few months I have been more open to questioning this in secret. Spending many nights lying in bed and trying to work out how I truly feel. I know that I don't feel male. At the same time I certainly don't feel female. So I now know that I am somewhere in the middle.

So the past few months I have been quietly sitting down and evaluating my feelings around my gender. If I am honest, it is something that I have never felt truly comfortable with even when I came out as Bi all these many years ago. However it is something I have been actively surpressing.

So I am going to post this here as it's probably the safest place to post it. I apologise for the ramble and how disordered this post is going to be, as I am trying to structure thoughts and writing this is making me nervous. 🧵