🔱🫧Elle🫧🔱 Marool

Bro I can’t sleep, I’m mad fucked at work tomorrow

I’ve been sick with Covid and in and out of the doctor, BUT I LIVED, so now I’m gonna try streaming again 👉🏻👈🏻

Catch the stream on Twitch: www.twitch.tv/whitethorngames

Today's lineup includes:

🕙 10 AM ET: @neviahofflame.bsky.social
🕚 11 AM ET: @sporerose.bsky.social
🕐 1 PM ET: @mokaboba.bsky.social
🕒 3 PM ET: @eleutharia.bsky.social
🕔 5 PM ET: @saneuk.bsky.social
🕢 7:30 PM ET: NolaQueenRell

STREAM OVER💦✨
Thank you so much for everyone who participated and to @alter-adamant.bsky.social and Snowlen for helping with the brackets!❤️
Y'all are my lil sog-champs
Thanks to @bananawanibites.bsky.social for the raid! We sent the sog to @eleutharia.bsky.social❤️
Until next time behave
cya!

OMG THIS IS THR CATPOLE?! ITS STUNNING!!!😭🩵🩵🩵 also ty for the raid it was amazing to meet you!!

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i am so physically and mentally exhausted from not getting full sleep last night that i think my brain might actually be casserole rn..

i need to figure out how to quail enclosure and then stream and then and then and then

I'm glad that even though it's tough making vtuber friends I have this amazing fish as one!

Drew this for you, @eleutharia.bsky.social

It's a lil silly, not my usual style but I love it!

i'm putting this on my headstone

a cat standing on its hind legs next to a person 's legs ALT: a cat standing on its hind legs next to a person 's legs

this is legit me

I lied. The curse is strong

💀 I'm gonna be so fr, making friends in the Vtubing sphere is so hard ,it's full of toxicity and weird ass vibes.

I'm legit traumatized and too scared to let anyone in anymore LMFAOO

I got an eepy sheepytuber and a dragpie tuber and im gonna hold onto their ankles for protection

(i lov dem)

yipeeeee , the curse of building schedules has ended

‼️‼️VTUBERS ‼️‼️
PLS PLS READ AND RT AND BOOST ‼️‼️🩵😭?? BEGGING

"Can I get inside of you?"

@elaravtuber.bsky.social asking the hard-hitting questions (featuring @eleutharia.bsky.social @monikacinnyroll.bsky.social , and me as my vtuber!)

twitch.tv/elara/clip/RichShinyMelonOSkomodo-rZYKCKeH8hULPQbl #twitch #ENVtuber

Pulling the trigger on something big.. Thank you guys for all the support on streams.. the finances this year really help me reinvest into my goals dreams and shooting for more for myself as an entertainer and creator 🥹🩵🩵

YouTube video by Station Zero Seymour River Mine Disaster - Tape 02 [ ANALOG HORROR ]

www.youtube.com/watch?v=BljN...

IF YOU HAVENT 👉🏻👈🏻 CONSIDER LEAVING A LIKE ON THIS ANALOG HORROR !! link below!!!! #vtuber #analoghorror

this is my subtle announcement hype post

a girl wearing sunglasses and a sweater is standing in front of a building . ALT: a girl wearing sunglasses and a sweater is standing in front of a building .

🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

a close up of a white cat 's face with blue eyes and a pink nose . ALT: a close up of a white cat 's face with blue eyes and a pink nose .

IT ME 😭

YouTube video by Station Zero Seymour River Mine Disaster - Tape 02 [ ANALOG HORROR ]

oh no i honestly got too nervous and didn't wanna do it without you!! i've been applying to a lot of stuff and got casted on this as eleanor 🥹
www.youtube.com/watch?v=BljN...

i'm still in a mental gutter but on the bright side i'm in a mental gutter with a voice acting role under my belt 🥴

i feel like i get one foot out of the tar im trapped in and immediately get dragged back down an extra foot and im tired of drowning and i wont stop streaming and trying to make people smile and laugh and i wont stop trying in general.. i just feel like idk what to do anymore. im tired of being me

I don't see what my friends see, i don't see what others see in me at all.. and i try and i try but im just some loser with nothing and few very close connections bc im fundamentally flawed and don't know how to be a better person.

This is not in any way a lack of love for my community my mods my friends, everyone shows up to chat and say hi and i love everyone so so much... this comes more from a place of self frustration, self disappointment, and finally after so many attempts, feeling unable to see myself how others see me.

And for months i've tried to push it off, i tried to think this year i would push myself HARDER. do MORE. go BEYOND what i thought i could. but here i am again trapped alone, in a dark room, under my sheets accepting i just might not ever be anyone.

I don't reach out bc i work full time, i fear quitting my job as i have so many dreams and goals but in order to pursue them without further asking my community to give in order to support me, i NEED the job.. but bc of the job my chances to grow dwindle by the day. I have become my own worst enemy.

I as of right now seem to only stream, never have time to clip myself or learn to edit or do more. I have been in a mental slump for a long time and have always socially struggled, causing making and maintaining friendships to be just the most impossible hurdle. I am content-less, network-less. etc

I've been avoiding it for so long.

The fear that i'm just not good enough as a creator finally caught up with me, and i am devastated because i know it's right.. If i don't change.. if i don't try harder, I'll never see my dreams of being a bigger creator come true.