zari nation

this will not happen. i'm just tired of being an adult about it all the time lmfao. ALAS

i need 2 be petty rq bc this is my only place 2 do it. i don't like this person i don't want this person in my friend group this person has treated other people i care about like shit. i hope their partner gets an incredible job offer somewhere else and they disappear out of my life

theyre birthday gifts even tho its gonna take me For Ever to get them done. and gm doesnt like celebrating his bday so technically i guess i've got a built-in out

i dont think anyone in my weekly ttrpg group is on bsky or follows me SO. sticks leg up. i can talk about the illustrations of everyone's pc i'm planning. and i'll figure out somethjng for gm

A screenshot of The Elder Scrolls 4: Oblivion, of the player looking at some plants along a stone brick wall, growing out of some grass. The one to the left is a traditional tall plant with leaves and pink flowers. There are some mushrooms growing, and one type of fungus with a long shaft with spiky root-like tips to them.

Your throat is still sore.
#TheElderScrolls #Oblivion

existentially bored despite the 100000000 things i have to do at work

difficult mostly bc i Am going to overthink the character design from toe to tip

sorry wait i cant make dick in blender until i draw meself a ref

big big big optimistic pacifist. with a gun she invented to be better at being a gun but sometimes it heals u. curled in the empty, decaying rose garden inside of herself, clutching her mother's pearls, empty and wanting, good at harnessing/manifesting the eldritch geometries she's so intimate with.

roz is great. twee twenties-edwardian mashup style detective from fantasy nola with a schmear of western and a combo columbo-mary poppins thing going on. is technically an inventor but it's not on her business card. she's sooooo haunted and alone but! clinging to her whimsy by her bloody fingernails

high pressure demo this morning n i crusheeeed it. finally a single good feeling at my job in the past month

its for a purpose but i have no idea if it will actually come to fruition any time soon

anyway i'm stressed to the point of considering going back to a hobby i havent touched in 6 years (classic thing for me to do) so. opens blender

i don't want to live in pennsylvania anymore but it's a historical home both emotionally and also like In Reality (was built in like?? the late 1700s/early 1800s? that bitch is Stone) and i want to hold onto it. it's a part of me even as the pain invoked by it is, too

and after she died her husband (married only a few years before death and i didn't like him much) basically kicked everyone out and sold off all her everything. i'm still a little mad abt it tbh

i often hold the home i lost when we became homeless when i was 12 as like. the petty when-i'm-well-off fantasy purchase but actually i think it's my grandma's house. bc she could often suck but all of my complicated childhood centers Right There, emotionally

im so
dhdjdjfjjfjfjrjr i need a new job

wait i have a 4 image limit. rude. heres the rest

ttrpg roll20 icons for my weekly group. technically a crosspost but they're so cutes 💕

if i fr lose tumblr and have to stay here where the (ex) bioware writers roam i will - (remembers suicide jokes are not constructive) - have the buddha nature.