"I can't be your girlfriend. You're (my name)". After high school she married someone who looks so much like me you would think he was related to me.

Seriously, quit saying I will find someone. It hasn't happened in 60 years. Quit asking me hang out at events where I am the Big Third Wheel. It's humiliating.

Talking down to me? Yep, that's a new trigger. Someone did that to me today and they got the verbal two barrels

To the greedy ones at United Health-careless, this Peasant will not Die. One day I hope all healthcare denier systems go out of business.

I tried my best. I really did. I hope I make it through again. My hopes are low. If something happens to me, know that I, for the most part, had a good life and just a few regrets. I love you all.

Too damned cold. I really would love to move someplace warmer and not in the USA. I have felt like a foreigner my whole life.
I really should have tried to stay in Australia back in 2005.
If I had the money, I would retire there or Spain.

I feel abandoned again though no one has gone away or anything like that but my sense of belonging has diminished today that I feel no one cares or ever will.
I don't know how to stop it and I hope these thought patterns go away soon

I know now why my father gave up living. Bring passed around in our useless health care system can bring down the kindest most humble of any human.
I'm sickened of the way people are treated like peasants when it comes to trying to be healthy.

Stop using “self deportation”

That’s not a thing.

It’s extortion, i.e., “Leave or we’ll hurt you.”

Deportation is a legal process.

@maddow.bsky.social

Don't ever ask me to wait. I don't have time anymore.

Another Christmas alone. 3 years of no gifts. Didn't buy any either. Took my sister to dinner.
I've become The Grasshopper.
Don't bitch when I travel alone again next year. Not one whinge.

So much I would have wanted to share with you and experience joy together. When you chose not to be born I just simply rot all alone with what might have been

This is the first time I've felt good in two weeks. Now to face winter.

We now know that the man who shot the National Guard troops worked with the CIA for years in Afghanistan in a covert unit that was accused of the widespread killing of civilians. This raises so many questions about why this guy travelled from Washington State all the way to DC to shoot soldiers

While the right lose their goddamn minds about a lone wolf doing something horrendous in DC today, let’s not forget that last week in the White House they all gushed over a genocidal, journalist murdering tyrant whose country financed 9/11.

15 years ago today, Willie Nelson was arrested in Texas for 6 oz of Cannabis.

God, who produces it naturally across the globe, remains at large.

"Would you like a hand grenade?"- one of my favorite movie lines in 2025

I took the wrong bread today. I'm just a terrible person. Sorry I'm not perfect

I try my best with the cards I've been dealt. I've learned that you never throw away your Aces ;)

Why even bother? I'm not married, never had kids, I don't have millions of dollars. Sorry I breathe the same air as all of you.

Today a little more of me died. Reminded again how useless I am and not worthy of living because I'm not wealthy. I hate this country.

I miss waking up in Spain. Every. Damned. Day.
I knew I would like it way too much

I'll go to sleep and wake up by myself. I really don't know how much longer it will be. The routine is old but I'll keep moving anyway.
I really needed you today.

Another day to tell me that you never existed. I just did my own thing like I always have. Always an angel, never a God...just like in the Boygenius song

Catcher In the Rye

If you go to Spain, expect dinner to take a while. It isn't that they are intentionally slow, most of the food is freshly made upon order and some of their kitchens are small. I promise you the wait on your food is well worth it.

I've been right here. Good enough to be around, not good enough to be with. I'm not an incel, no matter what you may think. Maybe, just maybe you won't think I'm broken. Alone yes, but only I can break myself.

Gandalf loved Galadriel. He knew it could never be anything more than a dream. They both saw each other's fate. I believe that is why he forced himself to change his name and lost memory over each age he went through. He still would recall her upon each meeting they had. Love never dies.

I miss Spain. I think I shocked some locals when I wasn't afraid to show my passionate side of my love of their history. I knew I fit in at least culturally. Life is to be felt!