Remy (phoestiel)

I originally beta'd A2A, and am going to beta the new version! If you've never read A2A, you'd be ideal!!! Get in touch with @cannibalsnplaid.bsky.social to see if you'd be a good fit!

2nd fic in mine and @catharafox.bsky.social 's Holiverse series, Baby It's Cold Outside. Silverflint origin story for the 'verse

archiveofourown.org/works/64597249

Screenshot of a Discord text exchange. Julien writes, "that's so gay" Remy, with the name Canadian ... showing, replies "Idk if you know this about about me but I might be the tiniest bit gay"

Idk why but Julien cracks me up. Sitting in the office alone at work cackling to myself

Remy sums up classic literature

Us occupying the same space for 3 days really aligned us

It's delightful to me how often @juliensalad.bsky.social and I are on the same page. The longer we know each other, the more we share one brain cell. We have fun tbh

I had a day of nothing. Watched a show with my friend, did laundry. Watched a hockey game. Didn't look at the news. Talked to my partner. Good day.

But the Doom is looming in the background. I needed this day to prepare. I need peace so I can do what's needed. Take your peace, do what's needed.

I'm cackling. What job could I habe that involves buttholes, incorrect answer only

Y e a h. YEAH. I AM NOT A REBEL, I AM A REVOLUTION

U' a queer little nightmares and I'm about to get VERY FUCKIN LOUD about it

Screen shot of a Discord comment that reads "do whatever you want with your own butthole, but be considerate of others"

My job is weird and I say weird things to my friend in regards to customers' bullshit

I'm trying to get my shit together to go to work. I ask in the gc, "How am I supposed to talk about safe, consensual sex when the world is collapsing?"

Friend replies "bc safe consensual sex will help people cope. It's rebellion against the Doom"

So yeah, I'm ready to help folks rebel

Also, I had a consult with a psychiatrist today. Essentially, she diagnosed me with The Big Sads. Recommended course of treatment is therapy. Which like... didn't need to do a 10 a.m. appt to learn that lol. But at least I have a referral so therapy is going to happen soonish

Actually, it's the slow burn before the oorn but it's very fuckin queer so

THE DOOM WILL NOT GET ME TONIGHT. GONNA WRITE PORN UNTIL THE SLEEP MEDS KICK IN

My ma, very tenderly trying to get me to eat, hands me a bowl of sliced oranges: here you go, my little fruit, have some fruit. Nourish your body so you can keep going.

We have to keep going. We have to find the strength to keep *being*. To my cis allies, to my friends who love and care for us, be vocal. Be loud. Be uncomfortable.

I will fight, even though in this moment I have no hope. But we exist, we have always existed, and we will continue to exist.

Ma: heh heh heh fuckin Billy Bones
Ma: I'd bone him
Me: drink some water, you thirsty bitch
Ma: can I drink Billy
Me: ma I swear to god

"If you're going to behave like children, then I will be your daddy" is like. Jack pls. Pls, Jack. You are the least daddy pirate to ever exist. You are a 2010s theater kid trapped in the 1700s. Be so for real, Jack.

SHARK DATE SHARK DATE SHARK DATE

What kind of unglued motherfucker turns into a storm with depleted supplies and almost no water?!

Captain James Flint. Absolutely fucking unhinged.

Would still follow him into any storm though. I am also unhinged.

I can't do this. I habe to do this. I can't keep standing up, but I have to. I dotn know how to comfort myself or strengthen myself or anything. I'm afraid, sad, and angry. And I don't know what to do with it. So I'll just sit with it until I can move again. It's all I can do

What a fucking *day*. It's been a Rollercoaster, man. Woke up to an impending sense of dread but still needing to Do Stuff. Leonard Peltier had his sentence commuted. Inauguration. Executive order. That gesture Elon made. The impending sense of Doom and the all consuming grief in advance

Tell me what's giving you queer joy rn. Can be very small or very large. The Despair is trying to get me and I need to not let it.

My queer joy is the gc with @juliensalad.bsky.social and @omgsammie23.bsky.social we are unhinged and ridiculous and I love y'all so much

Hhhhhhh yoy saw Gob?! In high school?!?!!?!?!?! AND ED THE SOCK WAS THERE???? HHHHHHHHHHH

MUCH WAS AWWSIME. DICYOY REMEBER ED THE SOCK'S FROMAGE??? I W E E P

I MEANT LOVE, AND AKSO HATE HHHHHH

Screenshot of Facebook messenger message thar reads Ma is watching BS Ma: You're brother described them as wet cowboys Me: are they not Ma: ESPECIALLY CHARLES. AND BILLY Me: Ma: SO WET. SO COWBOY

I love sharing media with my ma, and love sharing media with her. She's currently rewatching Black Sails

A blue background with a cartoon person in khaki on the right, a blue jacket, and light blue hat with headphones. They are looking at their phone and facing left. A cartoon sun and cartoon cloud is above this person. To the left, a heading thar says North Edmonton. In a larger font -19 below the heading, with the words partly cloudly underneath. At the bloom-17/-31 Feels like -24

I hate it here

I also have somebody who loves and understands me to the level he thought I deserved. I wish they could have met, I wish I could have explained how wonderfully and wholly Jacky loves me. He couldn't understand me anymore, but I hope he sees how much Jacky loves me and is happy for me.