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I started crying when I got off the phone and am trying not to have a full blown panic attack. She’s my baby girl. 😭😭😭

Calvin had his annual check-up at the vet today. Chloe had a her 6 month redraw of her SDMA bloodwork (used to detect early kidney dysfunction). Her levels went up. The vet called to discuss it with me. She’s going to have to have more bloodwork and probably go on a renal diet.

Turns out I likely don’t have a UTI, I’m just really dehydrated and the urine is so concentrated it’s causing irritation to my bladder.

Today I feel like I have a UTI. Thankfully I have my gyno appt in the morning so hopefully I’ll be able to have my urine tested to know for sure.

The moon going from full moon to a red moon and starting to go back to a normal full moon, then my camera battery door fell off.

Here's my first edit on the March 3rd Lunar Eclipse. 15 moon shots, 1 foreground. Taken over a 3 hourish period.

They finally reached out yesterday and I officially accepted. I will be starting my new job April 13th. Couldn’t be happier.

nutter butter crackers in the tray. no butter

and now my nutter butters don’t have any nutter butter. this could break me

Today should be your 38th birthday.. When you lose your son you lose more than a child you lose a piece of your heart and your joy. Life is forever altered, and nothing can ever fill that space. Yet in my soul, he remains, my precious boy, forever loved. His laughter, his smile, and his love are woven into who I am. My love for him will never fade. Yor are my pride and my joy - you've made a change that cannot be broken..

Alex's mom on his 38th birthday.

Each day I try to beat my steps and mileage from the previous day. I actually had to take my watch off this evening because I feel like I already may have done a little too much today— I don’t want to have to push it even further tomorrow. I’m ready to watch The Pitt w/ hubs & crash for the night. 😴

I restarted my Vyvanse today and perhaps it was a bad idea because it makes me have the focus and desire to clean my entire house and I can’t do that presently. 🥲

This is my hysterectomy recovery essentials basket. 😂

I’m getting coffee with a friend this afternoon, I can’t wait to BUST OUT OF THIS HOUSE other than to go to the store. 🫶🏻

Wowza.

Another thing I desperately miss is a hot bath, next to music it’s my biggest way to decompress. 🛁

Not to be crass at all but not being able to have sex with my husband is ruining my life right now. I thought losing my ovaries would help but I think my HRT is making me feel slightly feral. 🤣😂🤣

I GOT OFFERED THE WFH JOB TODAY. Just waiting to hear from HR about what my compensation will be before I accept. 🥲🫶🏻

The manager I interviewed w/ had a family emergency, so I’m still in limbo as to whether I got this job or not (idk why but my gut tells me I didn’t). I genuinely feel terrible about their situation. & I’m not in a particular hurry as I’m off on surgery leave but it’s a bummer just not knowing.

a sesame street character is standing next to a trash can and saying i 'll be nicely miserable in my trash can ALT: a sesame street character is standing next to a trash can and saying i 'll be nicely miserable in my trash can

Idk if I overdid it these past 24 hours or what but I am miserably uncomfortable tonight.

This is Wiley. He has never seen snow before and wants to make sure he gets a real good look at it. For science. 12/10 (IG: smileywileydog)

is it stuck in your head now too? 😂

This song has been stuck in my head for the past month.

My sister got us tickets to see Bad Suns because we are both missing live music. 🥹🥹

My sister just sent me the Naked Mole Rap song from Kim Possible. 😂

I’m also caught up on The Pitt and dawg I wish Robby and Langdon would make up but I have to think of it in a real life sense— if I had an actual co-worker I really trusted and relied on and found out they were diverting meds from a patient I’d probably need time to gain trust in them again too.

If you haven’t watched the first half of the newest season of Bridgerton *keep scrolling*…

But the AUDACITY of Benedict to ask Sophie to be his mistress. My jaw might have dropped.

I’m torn between enjoying people not trying to make plans with me and being utterly bored and lonely. Hubs goes back to work Monday, idk what I’m going to do with myself. I’m not even supposed to drive for over another week. 🫠

Slowly increasing my activity post-op (i.e. mainly just increasing my walking and standing, sometimes of which I have no choice when gas pains creep up).

Some of my lap sites are soreeeee today. They look fine, I think they’re just in higher friction areas.

I am definitely getting old because I’m at the point where people make pop culture references around me and I’m like “what the fuck are the words you’re saying to me?”

I finally watched the Eras Tour doc and dawg I cried like 10 times.

It still hurts me deep I’ll never know what it was like to see it in person. 😭