BluBozo

I really like his videos on dark souls especially the lost soul arts of demons souls. His Mario and Zelda series retrospectives are pretty good too. Also love putting on his commentary playthroughs for background noise. I don't like or watch all his videos, but there's quite a few that I do.

Not those particular ones lol

Regarding the bioshock one I know he meant no ill will but hes a white guy making a video game review, and it feels unnecessary to use the n word so brazenly. Just feels whenever non black people use it, especially to such a degree they're reveling in the opportunity to say it idk. Just feels gross.

As much as I adore a lot of MatthewMatosis videos and find his game opinions very insightful, him never addressing the blatant transphobia at the end of his Catherine review and his liberal use of the n word in his Bioshock Infinite one kinda irks me. The videos are still up and he's silent on it.

I really really hate jealousy. I think it might be worse than just feeling sad and depressed. I always feel the worst when I'm jealous.

bit freaked out cos someone recently talked to me for a bit on here, started to change their profile to copy mine more? They offered their discord and when I said I'd like to get to know them better before adding, they just deleted their account. idk what to make of it I'm just kinda anxious.

Dont even feel like a real person

Ugh what the fuck is wrong with me

Stay in bed and cry day woo

need to sleep the day away

Once again I'm tired enough to want to be in bed and go to sleep, but not tired enough to actually sleep. Fuck off!!!!

Dating a catfish was pretty fucking traumatising as it turns out. I have major trust issues now if they're someone who doesn't have an already established connection to someone I know. Even then I've been skeptical of those who are mutual friends.

So cool that one of my exes has made me very paranoid about meeting new people online in case they're pretending to be someone they're not. Especially if they're very kind to me and seemingly have a lot in common.

Possibly. The only thing I've found though is like one event in Reading for furries, but even then idk if I'd necessarily vibe or not.

I feel bad saying it, cos I cherish all my friends so much, I'm endlessly grateful for them, I just really wish I had queer furry friends irl too.
I'm like desperate to get out there and be around people, but there's seemingly like no queer representation in my area.

I hate my body so much blehh

Woke up feeling so depressed after having dreams about people clocking me, saying I'm not a woman etc. Also been feeling really anxious lately, wanting to reach out to people but not feeling good enough about myself. Worried my transition is going nowhere and I'll never be a woman. Feel so crushed.

I dont feel safe or comfortable being genuine anymore

Being vocal about my feelings is getting me shut out and made fun of lately

im autistic and depressed and seeing horrible shit around the world makes me upset and I wanna talk about it. Sorry.

Now a long time friend is randomly teasing me out of nowhere in a discord that has a ton of people I don't know in. Cool.

being a bother when I was opening up and relating to what they posted just hurt so fucking much idk why. I'm really sensitive to rejection I suppose.

someone I follow on bsky who I really love the art of deleted a post I did responding to them and closed replies on the post and it made me feel like way worse than it should have.

Im gonna start crying cos I dont have the body i want again aren't I? Yeah that's what's happening that's so cool

Dysphoria is killing me

So full of anxiety, dread, depression and dysphoria. I'm very unwell atm. I really don't want to be alive rn.

Need to be held, pet and told positive affirmations.

Can I stfu challenge

In other news. Regular service has been resumed and I am sad.

My new mechanical keyboard with pastel rgb back lit keys

The keyboard I got for christmas has a cute pastel backlighting mode I like.