Shmesh Squishington

feel like shit. Didn't fall asleep until 5:40ish am.

can't breathe out nose again.

I hate allergies...So...fucking...much.

:|

I will survive this too.

goodnight.

An expressive watercolour painting of two kingfishers

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It still visits me sometimes.

Hasn't happened in awhile and tbh I dont wanna think about it because then my ass will be up even longer I think so ima leave it here and try to forget i said any of this. kthxbye lol

- sleeping are not fun lol

Had that happen once when I was sick with the flu as a kid, ended up staying on a couch bed for 3 days watching Crocodile Hunter and a bunch of Animal Planet and Jackass shows. It was like a weird shadow demon thing. I think it was my sleep paralysis demon tbh but idk.

I also hope the fever dreams stop. I really dislike having weird nightmares for like a week in a row. I think thats why I cant sleep i dont wanna deal with that shit but I also need sleep because theres no way in hell im staying up for more than a day [at most]. The hallucinations from not-

Day 20.

I really hope by day 30 or 40 my SLEEP SCHEDULE WILL GO BACK TO FUCKING NORRRMAAALLLL.
!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

>:[

Up until like 4am+ againnnnnn x_x

Saying my whlle life has been turned upsidedown yet again because of all this bullshit going on is the goddamn understatement of the year. I hate this, so fucking much. The news hasn't helped either. May that rotting orange decay sooner rather than later.

I'll be under my rock if you need me.

-For a different day.

My head still hurts from earlier.

Im going to try to relax. I hate that I cant use weed to fucking help me. Day 18 clean btw. Abdomen still fucking hurts still have trouble sleeping. Still an emotional rollercoaster.

Just need time... :/

Keychron K10 HE Wireless Magnetic Switch Custom Keyboard The Fully Assembled version includes: The keyboard PCB, the case, and the aluminum plate. Keycaps (included Mac & Windows keycaps). Adjustable-actuation-point Gateron double-rail magnetic switches...

For those who wanna know what keyboard i got its the keychron k10 magnetic switch special edition. Im going to make it wired because fuck wireless and definately fuck Bluetooth. Im still pissed phones dont have an audio jack anymore. Makes me miss my old phone. Wired is reliable. Different rant-

a man wearing a white shirt and a mask says magnets how do they work Alt: a man wearing a white shirt and wearing clown makeup [he's one of the lead singers from Insane Clown Posse. I suck at names sorry man but your face haunts my memories in a good way. Especially because of this song lol] says "magnets, how do they work?" Go listen to the song here: https://youtu.be/_-agl0pOQfs?si=sZ1oeQZR7xjNRuxY

thank you to my friend Val for showing me keychron.

I look forward to trying this new keyboard. Going to miss the clicks clacks but whatever. Apparently this one is "better for gaming" because magnets. I also type hard enough to make silent keyboards clack, so, we will see.

- Back in 2017/2018. Absolute ripoff lol.

Also fuck you once again razer for going the AI route. You used to be better than that. Now youre just another shit corporation in a giant list of shit corporations. Ill never buy from them again.

Still better than the 250 they wanted to steal from me at Bestbuy for the same exact [it was white instead of black wouldn't of bought it anyway doesnt match the setup but otherwise the same exact] keyboard i currently have and bought for 150! -

This isnt even getting to todays expenses. I just had to spend 170 for a fucking keyboard because my current ones breaking, lost keys and dead LEDs after around 10 years. :']

Though I doubt ill ever get fucking hired at an actual job because of my disabilities. I havent been able to since 16 and they fired me FOR my disabilities! So... yeah. I have little faith in that. (':

I hope im able to save for it. Its taken 2+ years so far. Between the bullshit medical bills my insurance refuses to even glance at even though it was an emergency, I barely make enough to survive as is because of my disabilities lol. Still trying to find an actual job and study when I am able to.

Finally got the price of my rig down to a "reasonable" 5100....

Still better than $8100 fucking outrageous.

It sucks im going to have to fucking upgrade it again because of the AI bullshit ruining prices but it is what it is. Im hoping to get it before my birthday in July. April/May is the goal.

account because once again, fuck. you. razer.

I'm so fucking over today. What a goddamn disappointment. First the keyboard then my father smashing a plastic bag near my ear giving me a fucking migraine. I'm done for the day. Only been up for 3 fucking hours and I'm already done. How. Sad.

I wont be buying from them ever again until they change their ways.

Guess I have to live with a broken fucking keyboard until I can find a replacement. And guess what? Can't turn off the LEDs unless you sign up and make an account so I guess I'm going to be fucking smashing them or making a dummy

Fuck Razer and Best Buy's price gouging bullshit.

As much as I love their keyboards, fuck their direction with the AI Bullshit. I'm not going to spent $250 for the exact same fucking keyboard that was $150. Fuck. You. With. A Rusty. Spoon.

What a fucking disappointment Best Buy has become. Seriously has gone downhill. Can't even find a good keyboard here anymore why the fuck does this shop still exist IF YOU CANT EVEN FIND A GOOD KEYBOARD?!?!

All are too teeny tiny dinky pieces of shit.

How the mighty have fallen.

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If you've never seen phineas and ferb..you should. Yes its a kids show but its a very, very good one. Actually one of my favorite shows.

If on some weird chance you ever see this Dan & Swampy,
Thank you both for making one of the best cartoons of the 21st century. :] its helped me get better ♡

I actually am unhinged enough to think it’s not out of the realm of possibility that he launches a war to distract from Epstein files and have a reason to declare a national emergency to suspend voting. It’s not as if lost lives matter to him.

It’s been terrifying to have almost every year in the past 20 years be a lesson in how many people with power make decisions about who lives and dies with little thought or care or even a clear idea as to why they’re doing anything, and it’s terrifying that it seems to be getting worse

Day 17 clean bitches <3

Still got the abdomen pain and the bi-polar emotions but one day and step at a time. I got this.

Gorillaz New Album "The Mountain" is fanfuckingtastic and has been on repeat since it launched. I hope to get a physical copy one day.

I'm glad they're still making music. One of my favorite bands of all time. ♥

The battlefield 🗡

Sketch cmm🖤