nala

so comforting atp

and sometimes, crying feels better than sex

anyway if i don’t lose enough by baby’s first birthday this is definitely how im coming

i just wanted nice skin and now somehow have -300 friends & family

literally what is in accutane that alters your brain chemistry in such a way that suddenly makes u perceive everyone as an opp

isolation will never not be my answer to everything

thanks cass. 🤍 i’ve already spent so much time replaying the scenario in my head to see what went wrong but i still feel lost? some ppl are just nasty i guess

i think some unfortunate event is going to be my 13th reason and then i wake up

naturally, we will be brooding over the former for the next 6 months 👍🏾

it was a actually such a jarring experience bc immediately after 3 other staff members were all super nice to us and one even said i looked ‘amazing’ postpartum unprovoked so what is the truth

ik the transits are supposed to be insanely fucked rn but did i expect to be fat shamed by a staff member with 10 pounds of filler in their face at the dmv yesterday? no, no i did not.

buying clothing in a not so desirable size kind of makes me feel like i’m cementing failure but alas

like the propaganda is propaganda-ing i fear

tiktok is currently banned and listening to my parents weigh in on it is driving me up the wall

10 mins ago doesn’t count

i know i’m super depressed because i don’t even wanna be evil about it

2 hours into 2025 and I haven't lost 50 lbs yet smh. life is so unfair

ppl were sm nicer to me when i was tinier 😭

i guess i can be harder but that’s usually met with judgement and hypocrisy

i try so hard to remain sweet and bubbly and soft bc that’s who i think i am deep down but the older i get the more the ppl around me seem to reject it

every 6 months my brains like hey here’s every soul crushing betrayal you’ve ever experienced and no you’re actually not over any of them happy new year

i feel like a ghost

i could forgive anything if you’re honest about it

she’s gone out of her way to shade me for years now but i’m not sure i ever want to confront her about herself since shes probably stuck in her ways and i’m better off just pretending she’s 🪦 atp anyway

my narc relative also kept dragging the fact that she thinks my nb looks nothing like me just bc she’s mixed race and no one gaf bc it’s like the 10th time she’s said it and also not true at all 😭

Anyway I’m unloveable and deserve to starve ✌️😔

tbh this kind of indifference needs to happen more often thanks

- management

i’m perceived as the unstable drop out that somehow got married and had a baby with a seemingly normal person so they can’t be bothered to pretend to give a damn about me anymore ig ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

didn’t eat at all over family dinner and no one blinked bc i’m not the cute hs graduate w her whole future ahead of her anymore. my baby cousin took that spot <3