Following my gimpulses

The smell must have been amazingly intense!

I haven’t posted much of my chastity here.

I’ve been locked since July 15th so today is 87 days.

I’m so thankful for my Daddy. In so many ways he has helped guide me and rebuild my confidence. I am forever grateful that he’s in my life.

#Loctober #Chastity #GayChastity #BDSM #Kink3D

Excited for a busy weekend. Friday night with Daddy. Saturday is thanksgiving meal cooked by Daddy’s gorgeous partner, then off to #VML Grunt night where i have agreed to be the demo bottom. Saturday and Sunday night with Daddy’s partner. Sunday and Monday shenanigans including new #Pillion film.

I’m waiting for the restock coming November. Hoping Mr S have a big order in the making as it sounds like people love them!!

It sounds like a case of Heart Break. I want her to live forever but i think she wants her husband.

Fuck yes. I have fallen behind with my throat training, this looks amazing!

This is a plan!!!

Think I need to find a lamp of some description.

A cigar from last week. Not sure what I’m gonna do with the daylight slipping away.

#CigarPig #GayCigar #CigarTraining #TT

Happy birthday!

Today’s cage check photo.

What does a gag training session usually entail? I am out of practice, my throat used to be able to take a pounding.

Long story short:

Am I trying to buy their love and admiration or is gift giving (tributes) my love language and I just want to see my Dom happy, proud and sexy.

#findom #cashfag #bdsm

And finally… would I be doing this for the wrong reasons?!

I want to see the tribute worn, I want to be able to look up and see how amazingly hot they look!, I want to be able to admire someone in it, hear it, taste it, smell it, see them using it, using it on me?

#cashfag and Tributes.

Trying to move forward and work on my past experiences, am I realising I’m not a #cashfag but offering a tributes makes me have all the feelings.

And how do I move forward when the tributes I want to give are uniforms, gear, boots etc that are not cheap.

I buy gear for myself that I can’t afford and my line of credit sits there getting bigger.

Daddy had asked for me to take part in #CashFagFriday with $10 a week but since I said it was a hard limit he has never asked again.

Present:

I had moved forward with #findom as a hard limit but i still crave the way i felt presenting those tributes. I felt so proud, i LOVED seeing my master look hot in his new gear, and i loved when the gear was used on me.

But I can’t get past the scars of the past.

The Past:

A previous Master wanted regular tributes and i obeyed. I purchased anal hooks, Mr S Asylum Hoods, leather Gaunlets, Mr S Custom studded Jockstrap.

Most of this was not cheap.

The relationship was not a healthy one and upon it ending i had a lot of regrets about these tributes.

A #locktober photo to get your attention. Day 5 (82 total).

I have #findom #cashfag Tribute questions for you all.

I’ll preface this all with the fact i have a complex relationship to this kink.

Thank you. Ii got it from @regulation.store they were also incredible with the return of it since i ordered the wrong size. Great product and customer service!

I have never needed to be beaten and kept on the edge of breaking so badly.

What do I need to do?

I need some way to release whatever im feeling right now. Thank god i only come home to see family every 2/3 years. I love them but 🤯

#BDSM #GayBDSM #GaySub #Submissive

What a beautiful man!!

Remember when i ordered a rubber catsuit in the wrong size (Below), & freaked out?

The new suit was ordered last week and i have confirmation it’s 4 weeks away. Now i get to panic about it getting stuck with the Canada Post strike.

I still have my backup #rubber pants and top, plus my new hood 🖤

I don’t wanna know unless they can blow smoke rings with their hole… as a close 2nd I’ll take big lubey ass bubbles (like a perverted Glinda the good Witch)

Which gaping fist pig has the talent to smoke a cigar with their hole?

Goodness!!

I know you and other BLUF members are ‘just’ men but the combination of your pheromones, smell, the sexual energy, the leather, the piercing glare.. plus my submissive nature.. and I just end up stood there waiting for an order with my jaw open staring at you like a deer in headlights.

I love a dominant & forceful man. I would offer no resistance if pushed onto my knees!

I once offered myself, hooded & on my knees, for Daddies partner at a leather social. It’s the only way I felt like I could attend. It never happened, but it’s often the only way I feel like I could be ‘social’.

I’m sorry Officer, I won’t do it again. What’s the punishment?

#BLUF men make me lose it… I forget how to speak properly & get even shyer than usual. #Cigar smoking BLUF men make my brain turn to mush.

How do other shy, socially awkward folk react around those they fancy, love, or lust over? Even online I melt!

Do you meet #BLUF Men in your Day to Day?

Feeling Fresh. Ready for my fleeting visit home.