Goodnight socialite 18(+)

Not the fault of anyone else btw I feel inadequate because I’m myself not bc of other people

I feel so genuinely lost a lonely I have nothing even when people are around me I still yearn for more I do have friends many actually yet I still feel unwanted and undesirable

Already having an awful day great

The urge to just stop talking bc nobody would care if anything they’d be happpy

I feel so unwanted and unloved I can’t fight it anymore

Loving so much it grows painful knowing I’m undeserving of being loved the same

Day number 93837373 of I can’t fucking take it anymore

Should nawt be this upset rn my envy and loneliness are driving me so mad I may lose it completely

How are thigh gaps the beauty standard? If he’s not gonna crush me between them he ain’t the one

Everything reminds me of them

I would cry tears of joy

Painful jealousy returning based off the mere concept I’m nobody’s favorite I want to dieeeee this is such a dumb insecurity but it hurts so bad

On todays topic of breeding here’s a comment I saw on a y/n IG post

My dad being around destroys my mood I can’t do this anymore I’m on the verge of ***

“Rose should be with Finn” “no Rey” they should scissor

No joke having to be around my father is going to make me snap

I’m so happy —-> I’m an awful person everyone must hate me (cycle repeats)

Manifest my dad going away soon Jesus fucking Christ

Me when I think things are okay and instantly have a bad day two minutes later ruined completely by my father

Everytime I have to interact w my father six years are taken off my life

Also bouncing on some dick

Standing up to my father for once was worth getting slapped Jesus

When I isolate bc I’m upset vs the cause of my anguish being loneliness

That’s so very sweet but I wouldn’t want to bother you

So surreally upset rn KILL ME

Briefly feels betters -> realizes its mania -> crashes

A bara who tops is an angel without wings

Dad came home and cursed me out for no reason I’m so fucking done I’m not doing this shit anymore

I will not delete all my socials I won’t

15 year old me reading the “I’m sorry we can’t be together anymore my parents think you’re a psycho and I’m beginning to agree” text from my partner who was 17 at the time