Zybilna

if only I could offer other types of art services to switch things up whenever I get exhausted I probably could’ve fared better

I’m in desperate need of a break for at least a month from even looking at these models coz i feel like i’m going to hate em if I don’t… and i don’t wanna hate em… but i’m just so burnt out that I hate myself, my art and everything in between…

i just fell out of love with all these… there’s only one specific model that I use when I stream that I still love coz it’s just the closest I could get to one of my OCs. it’s not even a customizable… just a premade model that I had to recolor myself… it’s so precious to me

I finally found the pen! I hope they ship fast 😭

my tablet's pen suddenly stopped working today... will pause comms til I get a replacement! It's an older tablet model so I hope I find the pen in stock and hope shipping don't take long... will DM clients in few days if there's any delay caused by shipping~ 😭

and I still haven’t gotten my break from this… I am still burnt out… the last thing I wanna do is be in a worse physical state for having more workload for the same amount of money or even less… makes me reevaluate if is it worth offering my services.

and as a retexture artist I realized that it could mean a lot of surface area to retexture, more work to be done, I might take longer, more cost for the client, which would hit cost limit to be set by artist fast… and ultimately most clients (from experience) might not want to pay that much.

so many new customizables are sooo good!! i’ve bookmarked a few for quite some time now… but I don’t stream anymore at all…

i’m just trying to get to the end of this list without dying

having stomach issues at its worst during the holidays takes so much joy out of it… i love food but now i can’t enjoy them at all… constantly throwing up… dehydrated… on iv… bland food… toilet runs… pocari… can’t work properly… can’t play at all… can’t stream even…

haven’t drawn for years til picking it back up to do my own retexture lol and never would’ve guessed this year that I’d be able to offer art services of any kind… thank you 🥹🥹🥹

happy holidays to everyone. fam’s not too festive, so i’m just back to work again 😂 (got too busy this past week with the small baking business for christmas orders lol and terribly ill)

might post here more instead of the other app after that bs app feature they added 😭