𝕝𝕛 ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾

her traits are romantic, overachiever, ambitious, glamorous & talented. her aspiration is knowledge based. though she wants to find her soulmate to rule the kingdom with her.
(outfits: party wear, swimwear, party, cold
weather) i’m really excited to start playing this legacy w the new pack !!

this is Elizabeth Spencer. she is beautiful, obviously & her body is teaaa. here are a few of her outfits (everyday, formal, hot weather) she is my new legsgy sim and i plan on having her join the ranks of the nobles and eventually become the queen of the kingdoms

i did the only logical thing while there’s still ❄️ in my system and that is to speedball. pregablin & tramadol & once they’ve kicked in a nice amount of valium bc i don’t know how else to deal w my problems

i have a gynaecologist appointment for the first time tomorrow and i am TERRIFIED it also means i cannot score & i’m all out of ❄️ </3

i’m hoping we can reconcile but idk i just love him and he may have said that but genuinely this is the healthiest relationship i’ve ever had he treated me v well i don’t want anyone else :((

nah he was valid & i mean we broke up n i didn’t want that so theres that

its looking like we’re not getting back together and i honestly just want to die. thats the problem with making someone your entire world and basing your future on them… when they decide they don’t want to continue the relationship the only thing you can think of is ending it

exterior:
public - balcony w seating, bar & grill.
private - double stables w horse training stuff, greenhouse, huge pool w diving boards & slide, sandpit, kiddie pool, kids playground equipment, platform w sunbeds, grill, dining area, bar, seating & firepit, fountains & statues hedged in

floor 1: master bedroom w big balcony, ensuite. 2 family bathrooms. art room. gym with ensuite. princess child room w/ balcony & ensuite linked to an alice in wonderland playroom linked to an infant room w/ ensuite. mermaid / under the sea toddler room w/ ensuite.
floor 2: unsure yet. huge balcony.

the palace is 64x64. throne room, ballroom, sitting room, bathrooms open to the public. private, ground floor: study, living room, big kitchen, dining & bar, laundry, full bath, casual sitting room, conservatory. 3 sets of stairs bc its BIG
basement: wine cellar, another bar, butlers room, ensuite

my dad invited everyone round for drinks last night. i hung out until 9pm until i got sudden inspiration to build a palace last night (the most recent expansion pack is royalty & legacy, my mum got it me as she gave me an IOU for my bday) so i was like “sorry i must go, inspiration has struck!”

its awful bc one of my main hallucinations is bugs. in my home country i could rationalise it bc it would be really unrealistic for the bugs to be in my room but in this country? highly likely. last year i ignored my instincts believing it was hallucinations & ended up w a fucking ant infestation!!

i fucking hate ants.
ant season is officially upon us. i just found my first one in my room… and i’d accidentally drugged it lmfao (it had crawled on my bed and was twitching unnaturally & then i realised it likely consumed the ❄️ residue on my bedding) anyway its dead now

i rly hope my man & i get back together :( he’s the only person i wanna spend my life with like he makes life worth living

this makes my brain go brrr but my bf? ex bf? idfk rn but anyway he is not a fan of skinny lol

i feel an anorexia relapse coming on….. bc rn i don’t want to eat or sleep or breathe

ive never felt heartbreak like it

like twist a knife in the already deep, salted wound why don’t you. when he comes to get his things im just going to apologise, thank him for showing me what real, healthy love is, take one final look admiring him & then say my final goodbye. then i’m going to room & hopefully leaving it w no pulse

bf usually: not a hint how he feels
bf at the breakup:
you destroyed a person who loved you madly & although he was very reserved & didnt express himself openly in his mind he had planned a future with you having a beautiful wedding living in a beautiful house having a child together & with my son

i am on the edge and theres only one thing that will bring me back of the ledge. my boyfriend , my soulmate, love of my life broke up with me earlier today. i sobbed begged pleaded but he was certain. i was going to commit but i realised he’ll need this stuff. i get to see his face, say goodbye

lost a big rock of coke. i found it but honestly that very well may have been the final nail in the coffin because i have been close to suicide all sag because of what happened

my boyfriend told me hates me sometimes that he hates some of my actions and often wants to throw the towel in and feels he is far too patient with me. i don’t blame him. i’d hate me too. i wish i didn’t exist

now i look like this insane controlling girlfriend who goes off at her man but he disappeared, didn’t tell me what he was doing AND HE HAD THE FUCKING GEAR

i was gagging for a line but my bf had it and he’d been gone ages and then i finally came out my room and he sat fucking drinking beers with my dad. i was like you can stay out and drink beers idc, but 👏🏻 you 👏🏻 have 👏🏻 the 👏🏻 coke

the effects of ❄️ should still be in my system particularly bc i took an elvanse so that prolongs the stimulant affect in the body so taking tramadol then pregabs & valium as they’re kicking in is like a milder speedball which feels well deserved bc of the emotional turmoil ive had today

i just realised once ive been chemist to get my tramadol i also have pregablin & diazepam.
i am going on the nod.

i’m so depressed i hate that my boyfriend can affect me so much and literally send me spiralling

fucking prick

bf is still mad at me n ive not even done anything wrong 👍🏻 just in time for the comedown bc im all out of ❄️ but i took an elvanse so that should prevent it or at least dim it and i can pick up tramadol later