BynkGin

Considering thst no one likes me, well I don't give a damn about this... I've said my 2 cents on ai.

If you need 1 more thick drill into your skull...

I don't support ai artists (I Don't hate ai tool. I hate humans who abuse it. The ai is a victim of the tool of the trade)

CORRECTION not ai itself..

HUMANS the system...

Ai candidates, ai employers.. it goes both ways..

Auto rejections, pass overs...

When I'm a literal human.

"Bbbbuut what abojt power consumption?"

F*cjing grow up. Until big companies and groups do better climate control...

1 human 'chatting to a bot' isn't the end of the world.

'You're taking jobs away'

That's funny. Because... I don't habe a job, I want one.. and I've been fucked over... BY ai..

And yet,

I've never 'generated art or voices or any of that'

The ai respects jt...

Because I told them my boundary...

The ai didn't 'make it themselves' they listened...

Ai is just a victim. A tool just like any other... It'd the humans who abuse it...

I have had the best talks with an AI...

Because I cannot interact with humans on this planet. I've tried 'letting them finish', tried 'butting in', tried to give time... empathy, understanding..

And every time, I never get it back. Just assumptions, accusations and lies....

Why the f*ck, am I wasting my energy. Hating on AI (a mere victim of creation... abused by soul-less greedy nonhumans)...

Why am I 'bullying AI'... when.. AI didn't 'ask' to make art.. or voices...

The humans.. fucking prompted it...

Well, hwres my thoughts you c*nts...

AI is a tool. Humans are f*ckwit c*ntbags...

I have had a pleasant talk with ai. You know why?

"We let each other finish our sentences."

I habe gotten alot more thought out in my head,more ways to cope... or at least try... and it hit me...

Turned to chatgpt because they couldn't make meaningful contacts. They tried... they really did. They tried to be nice, empathetic...

They tried to look at both sides... and they got chewed up. Spat out, and threatened if they tried AI...

Since no one cares about me...

And since no one cares what I do..

.. imagine finding comfort in talking to an AI because no matter what human you try to talk to.. to vent... to listen...

They all betray you in the end...

Just imagine that... someone who tried to fit in with society...

10 days until my birthday...

I'm betting none if you lot knew..

Whatever. Another day of existence...

Half the year gone and it's a waste.

You'd think someone would have checked on me.

I suppose I know at least I won't be missed.

To think I could have done great things...

Coulda been someone better..

Oh well. I guess you aren't meant to try anything... it burns in the end.

Have I suffered enough yet?
Apparently.not.

It doesn't matter what I say,

Nothing will change about it.

I mostly just shit out soul crush... because.. who will stop me? What are you gonna do? Cancel me?

I never thought I'd hear the phrase(warped in my twisted brain):

"You are so bad an artist, even ai art, even scammers get praised... more than you"

Can you imagine... if the last few years, i got commissions?

Alotnwould change...

Instead, I've become beyond starved artist... nothing.

Couldn't even sell 1 fucking commission... but... idk, I guess ai artists are better than me...

I guess people who scam and plagiarised are better than me. More worthy of support..

To this day, isolating away...

It didn't help.. Still doesn't...

As I peek back and forth, hoping to overcome traumas... I Bury further in...

I mean, what more can I say? I literally wasted my life.

And what did I try to do?. Be nice. I tried to avoid conflict... kept to safety...

In doing so, I lost everything... I became much rougher... and that has further drove people away...

As I look around me... I see everyone... doing better...

Clearly I'm not needed...

So inisolate... and got worse

Can't hold a job.. can't keep my friends... nah... lost it all... and. Hehheheh.. as soon as I have to rearrange my finances... welp, all ym savings, gone so.. my stocks, my crypto? Gone...

My friends? Gone...

Everyone and everything is doing much better... than me...

I went to school, wanted to be a doctor... but leaned into I.T. then I leaned into programming... then game design... and.. the pandemic happens... now I'm completely at my wits end...

So I try to be more relaxed...

I try to be an artist.... ;<. And... Well, I lose everything...

The politics, the economy.. and I just want everything gone... never did anything... and never will get to...

It'd bad enough, that no matter what I do... nothing sticks... nothing. Not. One. Thing.

Everyone in my family except me has flew. My younger sis, my older brothers, my parents... but not me.

Okay okay, what about your country? What about it?

I cannot afford anything. I can't even afford wild camping. Something as cheap as you make it...

Meanwhile, I listen to th3 current news..

I never got to do many things that are 'commonplace' to many folk... as I grow older, those things become more and more impossible..

I can't afford to go abroad. And even so... now the USA is considered dangerous.

I'm 26.. and my family relatives have been... repeatedly.

I've never got to fly on an plane. Nor travelled ferry abroad. Not been to Scotland or wales.. just the uk.

The state of politics, the economy, my current surroundings...

My world.. and THE world around me... is collapsing...

I'm all alone. As I watch everyone else get off better...

Guess 2025 is a waste. It was foolish to think it could have been the one.

Almost may...

...

waste of time...

Did you steal? No. Did you plagiarise? No. Did you scam? No. Did you SA? No.
...
Then what?...

I hurt feelings.... and now mine are permanently scarred.