Nova

Im drunk, it’s late, merp. Whatever. I’ll deal with my life just like everyone else does.

I think I have a lot of work to do. On myself. On my relationships. On my life. And Im scared to do it alone. I know I’m not alone, but nobody can improve my life for me. I have to do it, I have to fix problems I didn’t even start. I have to heal from things I have no fault in. It’s frustrating.

And then I wonder if it’s even worth putting these feelings out there, laying myself bare for strangers on the internet before I tell my closest friends and loved ones these things. Because I know they’ll say it’s not true and that Ive done great things. But why can’t I believe them? I want to!

And when I DO finally break out of that isolation, it just feels wrong. Im wrong no matter where I am… i feel i take up space that someone much more deserving than me could be filling. I feel like a weird loser a lot of the time. So I keep away. And I disappear. And I hide.

I make music but it never hits right, not like i want it to.
I draw but I can’t draw like how I want to. I have friends and connections but they seem just far enough out of reach so that we’ll never /really/ know and trust each other. It makes me sad. I don’t like being closed in and isolated.

Ik im inebriated and these are just drunk thoughts but… no, actually i feel like this quite often. I know im neurodivergent, and i know other people know too, but i wish i was one of these cool neurodivergent folks who just… liked the right things, could do all these amazing things casually

Sometimes i feel like a failure because idk how to socialize still :0( and it seems like im always choosing the wrong thing to say even if it feels right

mad scientist espeon

I’m gonna go get drinks solo, maybe I’ll see someone i know! Maybe I’ll have fun by myself!

A digital illustration of a large black wolf with a lighter streak down its back and lighter fur around its yellow eyes, and a small orangey tan coyote wearing a red tracking collar with a whip antenna. Coyote is standing under the chest of the sitting black wolf with its head low, looking to the right up at the wolf, whose muzzle lays atop coyote's head and lowered ear. The wolf is sitting, its large head craning down to hold the coyote close in its fur. It's making eye contact with the coyote. There are words in the top and bottom of the piece that read "Little Coyote, Little Coyote, What do you see?" "I see a big wolf looking at me." The artwork is loose and painterly and though it doesn't fit the collage style of Eric Carle to a T, it is vaguely inspired by his work, hence the captions in line with the Iconic book he illustrated.

Why don’t you bring me a drink and help me relax, I promise I’ll be very appreciative 😉

🎨: @chubbyshiro.bsky.social

#Furry | #Furryart | #Fatfur | #Chub | #Bear

Donate to FORCED DEBT (and possibly bills), organized by Christopher Noack I’m one of the unlucky folk that had their nerves fried by pandemic customers a few… Christopher Noack needs your support for FORCED DEBT (and possibly bills)

gofund.me/51c4df29

not usually what he's got down there, but whats the harm in trying something new?

Support Hiro!! Support Hiro!!

Hey, critters.

Glaz is now home from hospital!

I've made a post on KoFi to help reach rent and bills for the month and beginning of next month. Any help would be great.

Hoping I have good news to share following yesterday's interview. I'm so keen to be back in action.

ko-fi.com/hirorwar/goa...

Donate to Help Support Our Family After Devastating Apartment Fire, organized by Malik M On New Year’s Eve, Our apartment burned down. Almost everyone in the … Malik M needs your support for Help Support Our Family After Devastating Apartment Fire

Hey sorry It’s been awhile guys, I’ve got some bad news, on New Year’s Eve my family‘s apartment burnt down. Fortunately mostly everyone made it out safely but our home is gone. We all could really use your support so we made a GoFundMe.

gofund.me/c304ddbd

“Ice cold bong, ice cold beer . . .”

“… that is how you know im queer”

- roommate after hitting the freshly cleaned bong

Warmup for sparky!

Raviolis are just pierogis when you open ur mind

Shout outs to my midwestern crew ur geniuses for this

I made actual money this week 🥹 i can have my bare minimum needs met aa ahhh

I haven’t been this bloated in a long time. 🥴🔥

Never let your werewolf boyfriend skip a full moon transformation. The side effects might be interesting and permenant until the next full moon 👀

#furryart #nsfwfurryart

What an interesting situation huh

@scraps-pup.bsky.social
@zaelgolin.bsky.social
#furryartist #furryart #opencomms

Hey, you, you're finally awake
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#darkart #digitalart #illustration #horrorart

🦝‼️‼️💦💦💦

Guys im scared of my computer :0(
It started typing in weird symbols out of nowhere and when i restarted it, the screen flashed a scary red and went dark suddenly :0( help me

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY <3 !!!!

This is Mac, Maccie or McDonald
He’s 32 and loves Red Hot Chili Peppers

completely forgot I drew this