Ren yami

That being stated, that means I got to stop ghosting people and start going to events again. I don't want to be a remnant of the old me. I want to be the product of time and effort

I was just complacent with where I was in life and what I was doing that I basically got lazy. I slowed down beginning to see faults and cracks on the surface so it's time for me to speed up again I'm going to do my best cuz I'm always trying to better myself and the people around me

Batten out of the hatches prepare for hyperdrive. I've got something in sight that I want and you all know what that means. Once I see something of my sites that I want I won't back down till I get it or achieve it

To be completely honest, what I want to achieve is a better me.

*Internal voice*
Hey, we've been sitting for a while
You ok?
*Me*
I know I just am comfortable with where I'm at I can finally work through some things.
*Internal voice*
Restart the engine.
*Me*
no we're comfortable*
*Internal voice*
You know you have to This isn't going to last forever
*Me* fine

That nice feeling of What you do anybody can do and it would be easy.
I think today's going to be the last day with current job. I'm going to change my career again. Maybe try to go after something much harder. That way I can at least feel like I'm doing something important again

woke up kind of upset because it feels like all the hard work that it took for me to get to where I am right now has been completely invalidated by Basically it being said "that it's a cakewalk" so the years months blood sweat and tears that I put to get to where I am just feeling invalid right now

This is what I was working towards

Meet the new vehicle I was waiting for the decals but ya this is her mitsu had metal shavings all throughout her engine so I didn't have a choice

So the first one was done by really good friend and I like it quite a bit. The second one is a commission but I'm finally getting art of my sona now it's time for full send

Also, I should probably get the artist's info that way I can tag them in this

Party was so great I couldn't see straight after

Yo I really wish I had energy after work so then I can actually like visit friends and not feel like I'm actively dying

. But when you work a labor intensive job and you put 110% on the line everyday. This is the outcome

Felt like I sorta look good today

I'll probably return to delete later

I swear I'm not a furry. I just side with the fandom

Well that's another trip around the sun for me (whelping day)

Short vid of my den tho bsky doesn't like videos longer then 60s

Yay 7 days till my whelping day oh fuck it's right before Thanksgiving well I guess I'm not doing anything for it this year or next

Had a good party with great vibes 10-10 would do it again (nsfw)

When everything felt like warm air and up drafts and now it feels like I lost an elevator coupled with explosive decompression
I knew what was going on but blinded myself to the truth and now my eyes are open

FYI guys it was really fun while it lasted

To my small pack love you guys and thanks

Yotie had such a memorable weekend in the mountains that he grew up in. ~

Thank you @renardyami.bsky.social my best friend, and @aurichalkos.bsky.social my favorite most wonderful fox in the world for these moments that I will cherish for a lifetime. 💙💛

Going to be forgoing my lunches for a little bit but fuck we gonna be driving good for a while

Sorry mewlings of a fox who knows they will always be a side character

I wonder if anyone releases I drive so fast and recklessly to feel that thing in my chest beat I snowboard for the same reason the harder it beats the more awake and alive I feel

I tell others I'll pull up and I'm good at coming back but as of late it's getting harder and the ground is coming up so fast

There's so much I want to say and I back down because I don't want the pity I want understanding I want someone I can open up to and tell them everything and not get told that's life

I just wish I was flying alone through this storm I keep looking over for a copilot to tell me we will be ok

engine one: fault
Engine two: offline
Engine three: max rpm
There's a storm on the ridge

I know I barley tell others how I'm feeling but fuck I don't understand why I do things alone and expect for it to decrease that need for others I physically hate being alone but I understand

I.... Don't even know where to start with a caption for this.. 💀

So here's some late-night drunkies and gremlin energy with @atticusfrost.bsky.social and @renardyami.bsky.social 🍻👹

💙 U @furconai.com

#pdfc #pdfc2024 #fursuitfriday

Hard work is paying off push just a little more and I'll have my speed form back

I really need to start hitting the gym again but it seems so boring to go alone idk do you burn calories snow boarding?

Are any of my friends doing anything for the weekend of New Years kinda want to kick it (not here)

It's like right when I get my engines back online boom flame out and I'm fighting not to stall

I fly on hope and I'm all out of that so I guess all I'll have left is my friends

Fuck I'm stupid