Anyway, this is from a while ago and I don't think I'll ever finish it. The decision on what colors to use for the characters stressed me out for Reasons.

Now, I enjoy it. I'm alright at it, definitely not the best. And I don't mind that, as long as people don't get annoyed by it. But I remember feeling trapped on ledges and being JUST out of reach on such a visceral level, and how it felt like if I didn't get decent at the game, I'd lose a lot more.

My introduction to Peak wasn't exactly enjoyable. I got it in an attempt to "keep up" with people and not make it too easy to get left behind, even though group games stress me out for a lot of reasons. The fact I wasn't good at it, it felt like the futile climbing was a metaphor for my life.

a person holding their dog

if it weren't for you

Death Looking into the Window of One Dying, 1900, Jaroslav Panuška

My little gooby…

Casey, a staffy mix, in a black and orange Halloween getup

Casey, but she’s a FAIRY PRINCESS!!

Look at my Halloween child LOOK AT HER!!! (I can’t believe I can’t find the tiny witch hat for the first outfit AAAUGHH)

(Overuses transitions because of course) happy Halloween!

The scary part is when you feel awful and just HAD a period

“Holy shit I should just fucking 🔫🔫🔫🔫 myself”
(Checks period tracker)
“Well, that’s probably part of it”

Drawing of a dark room in shades of blue. The room is a mess of objects, bedding, a broken bed, overturned furniture, and a woman cocooned in the blankets with a dog next to her. There is a yellow light of an implied door opening that is casting a harsh glare on some of the room and creating a sense of exposure in a place meant for hiding. The woman’s face is particularly covered by bedding but alarmed at the intrusion.

Couple years ago but still feeling it

Simple illustration panel of a heavyset character with “asshole” written on them standing on a podium with the plaque “celebrity status” on it. There is a crowd around them. Character one, who is heavyset, pointing at the person on the pedestal: “HEY LOOK! It’s that guy we both hate!” Character two, who is thin: “YEAH! Let’s yell at them!” Character one: “YEAH!”

Left panel: Thinner character, smiling and yelling at the Asshole: “HEY, YOU FAT FUCK! YOU’RE A FLABBY SACK OF SHIT, FUCK YOU!!” Fat character: (looking surprised) Right panel: Thinner character, continuing to yell: “Maybe you should put down the fork and pick up some morals before you get diabetes!!” (Note: this is a deliberately stupid insult, as most of them are) The crowd behind them is launching similar weight-focused insults at The Asshole Fat character: (looking around and seeming confused and concerned)

Left panel: Fat character, to thin character: “you know… I’m fat, too. Do you think that stuff about me as well?” Thin character, looking aghast: “(gasping loudly) Of COURSE not!!” Right panel: Thin character, holding fat character by shoulders and smiling reassuringly: “you’re not FAT, you’re my friend.” Fat character: (looking irritated and shrugging the hands off of them)

Fat character, squaring shoulders and looking irritated at thin character: “I’m still FAT. Would you say I’m gross if you didn’t LIKE me?” Thin character, pulling back hands and looking at fat character with annoyance: “You’re starting to sound like you SUPPORT this guy. That’s so fat of you.”

Now that He’s President again, allow me to repost that comic that resulted in me being harassed by swarms of jackasses on Tw itter when I posted it a little while back, godspeed!

twisting figures in repose or whatever with highly stylized anatomy. Their skin is more like a suit, one's face is a hollow grimace

another twisting figure lying on its side, another hollow grimace except their head is a tube

a stylized twisting figure of some humanoid thing on the ground

tw: blood, self harm, knives
(I'm fine)
I'm cutting off little pieces of myself lately and it's fucking terrifying but, well!!!

some kind of fish-lipped humanoid-faced monster guy scowling and biting a pipe

some kinda hyper-stylized sketch of a creature with a big-ass mouth grinning painfully

I wish I had teeth big and strong enough to chew every thing into pieces

a drawing looking down on a very fat and wormy peachy-skinned quadrupedal creature on its back, tearing open its abdomen and spilling its guts in the process. Its head is twisted on its long and chubby neck so its screaming maw is facing the floor, face stretched to so wide that the skin is peeled back to reveal the skull, and its long tongue with rows of flesh dug out of it from being bitten curls out.

tw: gore , illustrated?? not exactly realistic, BUT...

image of the OP feeling and applying ointment to a shaded figure's nethers (with gloves on, of course) while imagining their hand is touching a wet water balloon as they think, "it's crazy how I've never seen or felt a rectal prolapse beforn and I'm so sure that's what this is."

caregiving for someone in their 90s who is very stubborn leads to some fascinating new experiences

a guy in a spa setting lying back in a chair with cucumbers over their eyes and a face mask in a robe as the spa tech or whatever behind them readies to apply the "treatment", which means they have a railroad spike aimed at the back of the guest's head while readying the mallet in their other hand

need me a spa day!

doodle of OP looking at a letter and saying, "Oh, god. They're finally making me reapply to keep my disability benefits. What if they don't think I'm fucked-up enough?"

OP in the foreground looking to a group of people (their close friends and family) in the background. The group is all smiling awkwardly as they all go, "LMAOOOOOOOOOOO"

a line-up of some of the figures, one going, "I don't mean to be rude, but..." as they grimace awkwardly, the next going, "Don't take this the wrong way, but..!!" as they nervously and awkwardly smile to soften the blow, the last one bluntly saying with a blank expression, "you're nuts."

close-up of OP, looking a bit relieved with a slight smile, saying, "thank you, guys... I needed that reassurance..."

You spend a lot of time trying to hide your worst issues from just about anybody, but then you have to be honest about them to get benefits and suddenly you feel imposter syndrome

it's all heeheehawhaw fun little post chains until someone goes, "you are legitimately triggering a part of my brain that makes me feel a sense of dread and forcing me to participate in this as a result" and then it's SO AWKWARD!!!!

fantastical self-portrait-- a waist-up profile shot of a woman, where the neck transitions to a chubby eel-like creature screaming

doodle of deer-like creatures scampering about and nervously sniffing at a lumbering and deformed creature coming from the dark part of the woods. Little clues show that the deformed creature is one of the deer, but it's basically so fucked up for whatever reason that it's become unsettling and other to the deer, so they flee it

color illustration of a figure in a coffin with a glowing smaller figure trapped in their ribcage. The coffin is surrounded by flames and inside of a brick cremation oven.

"I'm still in here", which is the feeling of being in the body of a person who seems to have given up and is settling into death, but still having this panicked spark of hope that's trapped inside and invisible to most

a toonish drawing of the OP in a sarcastic clothed pin-up pose and smirking as they say, "Look me in the eyes and tell me you've never wished I'd just DO IT"

drawing of the same character rolled onto their belly and giving sarcastically sultry eyes and smile as they trace circles into the floor and say, "Aw.... You're a terrible liar."

TW CW Suicidal ideation suicide
I have a lot of messy thoughts that aren't helpful but still there
you can't tell me there wouldn't be a sigh of relief, even if felt in shame

Doing sooooo poorly, brotherssss

A doodle of person A outside of a door shouting “LET ME IN!” The next panel shows person B, who is scruffy and likely struggling, opening the door and saying, “hello” as person A fumes, and then a last panel of person A punching person B in the face very hard and shouting, “I’VE BEEN KEPT OUT!”

Do you have a person in your life who acts like they’ve been shut out of being involved in your life as if there was some huge conspiracy to limit them, and then when they do get involved, they leave you way worse than when they weren’t there?

“Your narrative” panel: Person politely knocking at a door and saying, “Hey, can you hear me? I love you and I’m worried about you. I want to know what’s going on, if you’ll share it with me.” “Reality” panel: A person kicking and banging at the door and shouting, “open up! Open up, you bitch, I want in!!”

“Your narrative” panel: A person standing next to the door inside of a messy and dilapidated house, looking around with concern and saying, “Oh honey, thank you for letting me in. I can see you’re having a hard time. It has to be hard to live like this.” “Reality” panel: A person standing next to the broken-in door of a messy and dilapidated house, looking around angrily and saying, “This is fucking disgusting. You let yourself live like this? Don’t you have any pride? You’re this incapable??”

“Your narrative” panel: A person holding the hand of another person and saying calmly, “I see the things you’re still keeping together and I know you can clean this up. Of course I have to have my boundaries, but I believe in you, I love you, and I support you. I’m always here to listen and will help when I can and should. I’m so glad you want to be better.” “Reality” panel: A person about to exit to the outside through the busted door in previous panels which they broke down, angrily saying, “This place is gross. Get your shit together, I’m out of here. Also your door is broken.”

Old vent post about how people handle mental health issues, especially how they think they do versus actually do.