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I feel so sick. We are starving, school sucks, i feel like our best friend hates us rn. I mean fair ig. Im so hungry. And i feel so guilty for everything right now. I feel so guilty asking for food and like we are just being a leech and we should just stop being lazy and make our own meals

2 augusts ago got our shit taken, parents found more sh scars even tho they were months old and screamed at us

last august got our shit taken away and screamed at over being a system and venting about them.

this august we move out.

august is such a trauma month for us for real lmao. why all the bad shit happen in august. CONSITENTLY. i think every year something happens.

Dissociation, childhood trauma give me nausea. Remembering and not remembering at the same time. Brain hurts

Our parents are arguing, we are stressed as all hell, rapid switching, wanna cry. Our mom is PISSED and yelling.

Hey mom why are we talking about the person who saed us !! Idc if its his birthday and he just turned 18!we haven’t talked about him in months or years! Doesn’t help that there are pictures of him with us everywhere in our house.

I feel sick and lightheaded honestly, not in a sick way but in a god brain moment way

Sometimes i forget we get triggered by things until it happens

I love seeing a classmates fresh sh and deep scars by accident .

Like we don’t really like them, but they definitely have some shit going on and i feel bad. But also now we feel really shit

"hey making us wake up way earlier to the point we cant function is a really annoying and really unreasonable part of this punishment."

"Stop taking out your frustration on us. what if you have a job? you need to just get over it and learn to wake up early"

oh ok fuck me then

And way to be passive aggressive and make it seem like we are in the wrong. Thanks that’s great . God get us out of this house

Our mom try not to get pissed at us over small things challenge impossible

God forbid we do the thing you complain that we never do and dont want to make a meaningless change to how we do something simply bc you dont like it

This definitely has no effect on our eating habits at allll or our relationship with food

We grabbed one and the dad atopped us and said to look at the bottle and he was all smug saying it was sugar free. I asked him why tf he changed it and why it matters that much and got told “its so you dont get fat” wow!

Found out more of ohr stuff got replaced with diet without us knowing. Parents bought us all sugar free sweet tea (one of our main comfort drinks having atleast 1 a day) and we didn’t notice bc the different taste though it was just different brand

Ah gee i wonder why we have so many food problems

The mom: god why do you never want to eat. Eat leftovers why do you not eat

The mom when we eat: god you are such a slob. You aren’t allowed to eat that, that was mine. I shouldnt have to tell you it was mine you should just know. God you just eat so much take smaller bites. *buys only diet food*

Love when i remember randomly that the mom has said to our face many times there have been many times she’s wanted to kill us and how shes had to stop herself beating the shit out of us many times

So healthy safe behavior. And she thinks shes an amazing mother for “not giving in”

Teacher is arguing students shouldn’t have phones at school and could be banned bc if there was a shooting a phone would just distract you. I feel fucking sick.

and to have multiple people doing that. weve never had stuff like this. like damn. we have FRIENDS. crazy shit

what do you mean our friends want to hang out and talk to us without us reaching out first. what do you mean they think of us and send us the "wow us fr" things. what do you mean they want to support us. what do you mean they are accommodating to us. what the fuck man!

starting to think being bullied and isolated all our childhood. All our old friends being abusive and unsafe to be around, and just constantly being mistreated by people is kinda messing with our perception of relationships.

Sucks when you want to love your parents but they do so much shit. You want to have a relationship but they are hurting you and not trying. They say they want ti get better but yet dont change. I forget good parents exist until someone else talks about things their parents do

the evil is getting to me (extreme paranoia and intrusive thoughts) wow so fun so amazing. i love thinking that our dog is dead. i love thinking someone is following us home. i love thinking everyone hates us. i love when brain says horrible shit about people and screams slurs and makes me feel shit

5: it traumatized the shit out of us. Along with everything else.
HITTING A KID IS NEVER FUCKING OK. WE WERE A CHILD. Not an adult, not even a teen. A fucking kid. Thats disgusting. I dont care if it was “normal” or “acceptable”

That it fucked up especially since weve been sa’ed multiple times
3: they have convinced themselves they didnt hit bc again, “spanking is different”
4: we werent bad kids. But we got hit so often until we were like 13ish. Thr worst we would do is get like a C on an assignment

There is no excuse for hitting children. Spanking is still hitting. Infact for us it was always worse than any other hitting bc
1: parents didnt see it as hitting so they hit very hard
2: being taught no one should touch that area without permission then the people violating that being a parent.

Thinking violent intrusive thoughts about a friend wanting to kill them when they didnt do anything wrong is an experience. Wtf is wrong with me

Like for the love of GOD find other people too we cannot be the only one you hang out with. And anytime we arent with them they look like a sad puppy about yo fucking kill themself bc they are. For now im just avoiding them bc i may snap and that would not be great.

Brain keeps telling me one of our friends is watching and following us. And i dont want to be an asshole but I really dont like them right now and im pissed and they haven’t even “done anything” . Its so FUCKING annoying being their only real support and where they can unmask (theyve said this to us

NO SHIT THEY NEED HELP. but this is not the place. and im really uncomfy and feel sick now. uncensored and everything just out of nowhere. i had to argue my case to make them move to the vent channel which even then is for lighthearted vents only. they got upset when i suggested they ask to dm