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just that. finally broke. can't get hired. out of things to trade for time. ultimately no one has anything I want enough for me to keep struggling in vain. i've been beyond done for years now.

good luck.

Not familiar and didn't find a clear and short description... lots of yammering on about uniforms and horses or some shit...

Cadia broke before my erection did.

It's crazy arrogant I realize but helps(in an unhealthy way) to think most people as sloven dumbtards. "I need neither your awareness nor approval." I say that, but there are plenty I respect the work of and always feel like a rank, garbage amateur by comparison. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

WRT to perfectionism tho

Phhht. Megan has SSDs for sure.

Bitterly resenting life. (same)

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But yeah.. a number of things happened. An anti-intellectual bent rose up. A refusal from many to ever examine our flaws and atrocities. A lot of false adherence to things like religion and law. A blind eye toward the long term rot of poverty, racism and inequality. All the while, completely sure

In fairness, I don't think American patriotism is 100% bad. Most of it comes from the revolution. There (was) a certain audacity that served us well. But we rested on our laurels. We kept the pride, doubling down on it in fact, and let everything else rot. So now we're like spoiled children.

Suddenly, it was all "support the troops." Never mind it was a sham war.. But it was all lip service. No one cared about soldier's vehicles not having armor. No one cared about the cancers from exposure to burn pits and alike. Everything is like a sports team here and ppl don't question it.

Patriotism, religion, tribalism.. all just means to control people. I grew up on military bases and remember signs like "keep dogs and sailors off the grass." Vets were completely ignored if not disliked. Until, that is, civilian buildings fell down on 9/11. It was an immediate bullshit change. 1/2

This is prob a shitty explanation but the US is like Amazon. They have literally anything you could want and will have it on your door in 18 hours. The return policy and procedure is normally phenomenal. Buuut, if you fall through the cracks some way, some how... fuck you, die. You have no recourse.

Healthcare here is probably some of the best in the world but everything outside of treatment itself is inherently predatory. People deny ambulance rides because they don't want to be charged $5k. The insurance industry bought the politicians forever ago. Congress however is granted /12

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Is that an artifact of universal health care there I guess?

I think the only reason health care is "fast" here is b/c only a fraction of the population can afford it. Otherwise I suspect we'd have wait lists as well.

"Insurance only works when you're healthy." -> www.youtube.com/watch?v=um0m...

I'll keep it to cat memes next time. =)

Wasn't that long ago medicine (psych and otherwise) was an honest horror show full of charlatans.

How did we come so far and yet fall back anyway? It fucking boggles me.

all my medals and ribbons into a ceramic pot and burned them in early Jan. The only way I've found to function is to just abandon ship. I'm either leaving the US or I'm just leaving but I've rejected any ownership of this place.

11:30?

Sigh.. Like I said, too much effort and bullshit for nothing in return. I appreciate the answers tho.

I don't know that I care about a permanent visa rn. Honestly, it's probably a pipe dream for me anyway. Once my boy passes, I'll likely just exit. At this point everything seems like an infinite amount of work for, at best, a paltry amount of payoff. It's all a pretty big ask for a "maybe."

point me to an exe

No one makes it out alive.

Sounds grim but I'd assert there's freedom in internalizing that.

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That sounds like leaving the house would be involved...

Also:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tXs...

what a cunt

Funny part is, I don't ever actually talk to anyone tho.

This is Todd's world. We just live in it.

Until he decides we don't.

^ chaotic alignment energy

Super slick!

Some hotshot novice walks in and assumes everyone else is just stupid without know why the concessions were made in the first place.

Typical junior officer trope.