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God I miss it so much too I hope Jamie atones for his sins

(I am .weapon on egge) :—)

in all honestly idk how many apps I can keep moving to. Hopefully this will be the last one istg I’m so tired but I need a space that isn’t a total pit or completely public. Apparently that’s too much to ask for

Inaction also has consequences… inaction also has consequences……. (sweating shaking dry mouth clammy hands heart palpitations can barely stand)

I can’t even enjoy my days off because I fucking dread going back there. Let alone going back with the possibility of working with that 60yo teenager with 3 billion write ups to her name who nobody gets along with. Not even customers. Insane

and this is one of those things. It’s hard I want to give up and quit sooooo bad but it took me too long to find a job period, let alone one that pays as much as this and I actually somewhat enjoy bakery so I don’t have a choice but to fight for it. Lmfao

should say I would like to look for a new store because it feels petty and storehoppy but if I don’t I’m fr just complaining with no solution suggestions. But I’m so unhappy this is probably one of the worst job situations I’ve been in. I just have to remember my 2025 goal of doing stuff for myself

Last night I got into a huge argument with a coworker and now I am nervously typing a message to the store leader about how unhappy I am and what happened (because I know she’s going to skew the situation in her favor). Idk it’s a nothingburger paragraph mostly, I’m debating on whether or not I

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-else doing it before they brought me on, literally lied to my fucking face and I’m permastuck in kitchen with coworkers who wonder why I’m there every night. I could go on forever about it but I already did. TL;DR new type of psychological torture just dropped

It’s a mess, I’m a mess. And it’s gonna just get messier all over again when I come back to work. The store I’m at doesn’t help either, I’m literally not needed idk why they took me in. I messed up the ecosystem there and I can’t even fucking do bakery as I was promised because they have someone-

I got off of work 5 days ago and immediately went into a 24hr episode and it’s been kind of off and on since, it was enough to finally force me to reckon with some mental health matters I have been RUNNING from my whole life but the thing is that I’m doing it all alone and it doesn’t feel good

This store leader gave me 6 whole days off (technically doable because 3 days are at the system’s version of week end and 3 days are the system’s week’s start) but I need 6 months off tb fuckinggg h. I’m in the hole. The hole of horror

Ok actually it’s kind of worse when the only tangible things you have for some characters are meme redraws. A couple months ago I drew my tiefling in the urethra!! img and that’s the most accurate drawing I have of him right now in terms of color and horn shape. I’m NOT showing anyone that

Wanting to talk about your OCs when you don’t have ANY ART OR WRITING for them is a special kind of hell like now I gotta figure out how to beam everything about them directly into your guys’ heads. all thanks to my Do Nothing Forever ass

i love homosexual vampires

A big orange cat is laying on a black chair in a stretched position. His hind legs are sticking out straight and his tummy is exposed. He is looking at the camera with half-lidded green eyes. He is surrounded by pillows and blankets, the blankets strewn to cover the arms of the couch

Enough of that though. Look at the way my cat was chilling when I came out of my room today (blankets covering arms of chair = cheap anti-clawmark tactic). My pet chill guy

Wreow… doing bad tonight but what is new. Not that for sure

I keep coming across upsetting stuff that shouldn’t realistically upset me today and it’s just reinforcing. Unwellness. (< trying to be vague) wish I had the Vent App 4 this honestly

This is a joke I don’t get this stuff very often because y’know I gotta actually use them all lmfao. But these are small and cheap enough to get multiple and Alkemia sent me an extra one for free :) (Guilded Alchemy) I’m lowkey obsessed with their site I’m always in there reading about their scents

Me: I'm worried about money 😩😩😩 moneyy 😩😩😩😩😩
Me the very next day: look at my seven new fragrances boy

For Alkemia I tried Drakon and Arcanum. Drakon is a mix of every single note I love, it’s spicy and a little resinous. Arcanum is drier and very incensey which I also like a lot. Atp my nose started hurting so I haven’t smelled the other two yet lmao but I’ll get there eventually

The first 3 are oil rollers and they’re much simpler, each of them can be a really good layering scent. Sanguis Virginis and Blood Oath are really sweet, Sanguis does a good job of balancing metallic with fruit. Mixing Reign of Hell in gives a good musk depth to both

The first 3 are from an Etsy shop and the 4 small bottles are from an actual house. The Drakon scent is limited time (discontinuing) which SUCKS SO BAD because I like that one A LOT. I’ll have to wear each one for a day to get a more in-depth opinion too ofc but Drakon ate immediately

Seven fragrance bottles sit on top of a wood dresser, all with black caps. There are 3 big ones and 4 small ones. The bigger ones’ labels vary in black, red, and white. The first one says “Reign in Hell - smoke, white clove, musk, cedarwood.” The second one says “Sanguis Virginis - metallic blood, black plums, & figs.” The third one says “Blood Oath - dried blood, amber resin, & rosewood.” The small bottles vary slightly in color, yellow, purple, orange, and blue, all with “Alchemia perfumes” logo. The first one says “Guilded Alchemy,” the second one says “Arcanum,” the third one says “Esprit de la Terre,” and the fourth one says “Drakon.” Behind the seven fragrances are an array of candles and candle holders, and a small decorative dagger

FRAGRANCE HAUL FRAGRANCE HAUL

Happy birthday!! It’s terrible that happened, I hope you have/had a good day regardless 🫂 ♥️

And I can focus on eating more balanced and cooking more. I can try to wake up earlier on days off to get more sunlight in. I can go out and do things more often. :’) idk. Trying not to think about money again but I can also open comms when I get to drawing more so 🦍💨

But on the slightly brighter side of things, after these next 2 grueling weeks I will have more time to focus on myself. I’m thinking about how much more art I can try to get done when I don’t have that “5hrs before work” paralysis 4-5 days a week lawl

I think I contradicted myself a little bit mb I wish I could edit these lmfao. To clarify I get paid much more for working at night so part-time is pretty viable for me until the prospect of living alone comes in which makes it uncomfortably less viable. The situations I get into… 🧎‍➡️

And there’s nobody I trust enough irl to talk to in-depth about it 😭😭😭😭 my god just kill me