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God I miss it so much too I hope Jamie atones for his sins

(I am .weapon on egge) :—)

in all honestly idk how many apps I can keep moving to. Hopefully this will be the last one istg I’m so tired but I need a space that isn’t a total pit or completely public. Apparently that’s too much to ask for

Inaction also has consequences… inaction also has consequences……. (sweating shaking dry mouth clammy hands heart palpitations can barely stand)

I can’t even enjoy my days off because I fucking dread going back there. Let alone going back with the possibility of working with that 60yo teenager with 3 billion write ups to her name who nobody gets along with. Not even customers. Insane

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-else doing it before they brought me on, literally lied to my fucking face and I’m permastuck in kitchen with coworkers who wonder why I’m there every night. I could go on forever about it but I already did. TL;DR new type of psychological torture just dropped

It’s a mess, I’m a mess. And it’s gonna just get messier all over again when I come back to work. The store I’m at doesn’t help either, I’m literally not needed idk why they took me in. I messed up the ecosystem there and I can’t even fucking do bakery as I was promised because they have someone-

I got off of work 5 days ago and immediately went into a 24hr episode and it’s been kind of off and on since, it was enough to finally force me to reckon with some mental health matters I have been RUNNING from my whole life but the thing is that I’m doing it all alone and it doesn’t feel good

This store leader gave me 6 whole days off (technically doable because 3 days are at the system’s version of week end and 3 days are the system’s week’s start) but I need 6 months off tb fuckinggg h. I’m in the hole. The hole of horror

Ok actually it’s kind of worse when the only tangible things you have for some characters are meme redraws. A couple months ago I drew my tiefling in the urethra!! img and that’s the most accurate drawing I have of him right now in terms of color and horn shape. I’m NOT showing anyone that

Wanting to talk about your OCs when you don’t have ANY ART OR WRITING for them is a special kind of hell like now I gotta figure out how to beam everything about them directly into your guys’ heads. all thanks to my Do Nothing Forever ass

i love homosexual vampires

A big orange cat is laying on a black chair in a stretched position. His hind legs are sticking out straight and his tummy is exposed. He is looking at the camera with half-lidded green eyes. He is surrounded by pillows and blankets, the blankets strewn to cover the arms of the couch

Enough of that though. Look at the way my cat was chilling when I came out of my room today (blankets covering arms of chair = cheap anti-clawmark tactic). My pet chill guy

Wreow… doing bad tonight but what is new. Not that for sure

I keep coming across upsetting stuff that shouldn’t realistically upset me today and it’s just reinforcing. Unwellness. (< trying to be vague) wish I had the Vent App 4 this honestly

This is a joke I don’t get this stuff very often because y’know I gotta actually use them all lmfao. But these are small and cheap enough to get multiple and Alkemia sent me an extra one for free :) (Guilded Alchemy) I’m lowkey obsessed with their site I’m always in there reading about their scents

Me: I'm worried about money 😩😩😩 moneyy 😩😩😩😩😩
Me the very next day: look at my seven new fragrances boy

The first 3 are from an Etsy shop and the 4 small bottles are from an actual house. The Drakon scent is limited time (discontinuing) which SUCKS SO BAD because I like that one A LOT. I’ll have to wear each one for a day to get a more in-depth opinion too ofc but Drakon ate immediately

Happy birthday!! It’s terrible that happened, I hope you have/had a good day regardless 🫂 ♥️

And I can focus on eating more balanced and cooking more. I can try to wake up earlier on days off to get more sunlight in. I can go out and do things more often. :’) idk. Trying not to think about money again but I can also open comms when I get to drawing more so 🦍💨

But on the slightly brighter side of things, after these next 2 grueling weeks I will have more time to focus on myself. I’m thinking about how much more art I can try to get done when I don’t have that “5hrs before work” paralysis 4-5 days a week lawl

I think I contradicted myself a little bit mb I wish I could edit these lmfao. To clarify I get paid much more for working at night so part-time is pretty viable for me until the prospect of living alone comes in which makes it uncomfortably less viable. The situations I get into… 🧎‍➡️

And there’s nobody I trust enough irl to talk to in-depth about it 😭😭😭😭 my god just kill me

MS Paint image of a cartoonish figure on its hands and knees crying with blue tears dramatically flowing down its face and pooling on the floor. The figure has exaggerated eyes

living on that (I get paid kinda big for working @ night so it’s not THAT much of an issue but to be 100% comfy I’d have to go back to fulltime). The situation I’m in isn’t complex in any form but DAMN do I not want to be in it… just know I’m having about 7 issues rn and they’re all holding hands

I’m being vague because talking about it makes me upset and I don’t want to blast it here but if I end up on my own… god how am I gonna make it lmfao. Because I put in a req for part-time hours (20-30/week) because it’s genuinely killing me except now I have to actually worry about potentially

I’m so stressed about how I’m going to keep myself fed and housed but like. in a different font. Now that I have a job and savings again

The “call off of work” demons are whispering to me………….:… enticing……….

Wish I was unemployed and free. Wish I was living on a mountain surrounded by pine trees and long grass and flowers. I wish the sun could warm my body back to life. Instead I’m working at a gas station and I’m in an old gross apartment and just watched somebody get their car towed from the lot