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#pokemon
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im just a gremlin hiding away in its cave

マチエール 練習 ⁽⁽ ◟(∗ ˊωˋ ∗)◞ ⁾⁾

#ポケモンレジェンズZA #PokemonLegendsZA

i deleted twitter off my phone 😇

mrow

i’ve figured out that i am a woman, just have always felt like i’ve needed to act a certain way to be seen as one but i realize that its perfectly ok for me to be a woman in my own way

not gonna push away or be ashamed of what makes me unique anymore

i can’t escape these fucking numbers

hi

shaving for the first time in a while hoping it’ll make me feel somewhat better about myself

i just want to feel like me

i feel like i’m trying to run away from the burden of being a trans woman, all the thoughts of dysphoria, fearing i won’t pass, worrying that i’ll be harmed for being this way

i need advice, i really don’t know what i should be doing

gonna experiment 👍

i’m cool with anything :)

any pronouns are fine

i might be non-binary

i’m sorry that i’ve been such a disappointment

i want to feel better, my mental health took a nosedive a bit after i started injections so im just holding out hope that i’m in an adjustment period or something and that i’ll be ok soon

the amount of dms i haven’t responded to makes me feel like shit but i also genuinely cannot hold a conversation with the way i am right now

almost a month of being pretty much entirely detached from anything social lmao i think i legit have forgotten how to talk to people

they fr need to add more skin tones in the next pokémon game cuz im stuck picking the white girl since the second-darkest option (there’s only 4 skin tones) isn’t really anywhere close to my color, crazy how animal crossing got it right first

another day of wishing my boobs were bigger

gained a lot of weight and most of it has gone to the areas i’d want it to but i still feel like shit about it having gone up that much, just been too depressed and disassociated from everything to take better care of myself

マチエール

fucking around in mario 64 just to feel something

a pixel art drawing of a girl with pigtails and a collar ALT: a pixel art drawing of a girl with pigtails and a collar

being this detached from reality could be the push i need to leave everything behind

getting high or drunk just makes me feel like shit now lmao can’t escape how im feeling

unfortunately i still exist

ruined my sleep schedule again

i’ve been feeling really anxious and awkward lately