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cannot evennnnnnnn with her 👵🏻

wish this was private bc there’s no way to even explain yesterday bc if anyone ever saw it, they’d know who i’m talking about 🤣🤪 love herrrrrr & her saturday mouth!!!!

swiping right on people knowing damn well i’m never gonna talk to them, but my brain has a temporary lapse in judgement & thinks i wanna date. i, in fact, do not 🤣

s2g it felt like a date today 🥹🥹🥹

help bc now i’m getting cards addressed to “you” from “me” what does it meannnnnnnnnn

i’ve realized if it’s DURING then she’s alone, but if it’s AFTER then she was with him… getting more of a sense of the patterns now, wish i’d realized this earlier. what’s happening with us, what the interaction level via electronics was, & knowing what was happening if there wasn’t much.

some of the things she says / does truly, truly melt me. like let’s frickin’ GO babydoll!!!!!! my HEART & the hugs UGH

love that she saw the kissing c/f story & opted out of viewing the rest of them 🤣 like girl it was about you, ya frog!!!

the hug today >>>>>>>>>>

is it batshit that i know if she’s made something bc of a very distinct taste in all of her food? it has no flavor that you can find in a store, but there’s a taste that is just hers? i’ve thought this since the first meal i had of hers? & it’s almost like… familiar? maybe time for that lobotomy!

cannot tell if i’ve stretched my pants out so that they fit normally or if i’ve lost enough weight so that they fit normally 🙃🙃🙃

do i give up or keep on keepin’ on. work & relationships are so exhausting.

never in my life have i felt like this before… i don’t know if i’m having a hard time waiting for what i feel will happen, or if i’m seeing it all & desperately hoping for it to play out how it needs to, but to please let it be her.

please let her miss me enough to do something about it. drive to my house, kiss me on the lips, tell me you love me. please, please, please.

the absolute terror i got from quickly glancing & mistaking gene for victor…

yes.

absolutely heartbreaking.

i now love to play golf & watch true crime. in what world…?

really wish this was a priv acct so i could talk to myself about how i know it’s meant to be simply bc of a winter break snow storm . like even though it SEEMS delulu, i’ve had this conversation with myself every year for five years now

I’d really like a private account option!

i HATE that she feels like the one bc fuck man sometimes 💔

like? as queen sabrina sings, you’re good at the fall & not the staying there, you’re good at the giving too much then getting scared.

you are not her soulmate man fuck ):

EW what?????

lmfao okay fuck you too!!!

THE WAY I CACKLED

she came home & i stg i haven’t slept that well since before the littlests came home. obsessed with being your mama, sweet girl 🐱💞

if someone learns how to get rid of this stupid circle pls let me know

can this @* shit go tf away??????

such a perfect photo 😍