Kalagni

Fuck. I show my partner and realize that if sour candy works as a sensory distraction for anxiety, then maybe there’s a reason my bedtime snack is sauerkraut, pickled turnips, and pickled onions drowning in vinegar.

...I hate these painfully obvious revelations...

Guilty monkey meme. Learning sour candy helps with dissociation and anxiety *Guilty monkey looking back and forth* Me routinely eating sour candies until my mouth bleeds

Anecdotal, but it tracks for me.

Or my body is warning me fae-things are around so making me get out my cane since they really don't like my cane...by design. Maybe I'll pretend that is the case, more fun than bodies decaying around consciousness.

Yesterday, gripe about bodies and aging. Today, did nothing I can think of, but so much foot pain I'm using my cane again. Not sure if this is my body saying I'm getting old, or that I'm still young since the last time I needed a cane long term was nearly a decade ago.

Yes! I googled about that when it first came out but couldn't find any mention so I thought it was just me.

Amusingly, not admiringly

Okay I looked it up. I can't remember how long I sat on the article, but filming for the episode ended the week before my article was posted. Admiringly tight timeline. Tuned into the same things I guess heh

Schwarzenegger yelling "It's not a tulpa"

I made the same joke. Now it only aired a few months behind my article, so most likely coincidence (not sure how long before airing they are filmed), but still amused that someone else made the joke, if for a different reason

Okay highly amused watching Supernatural for the first time. Season 10 they have a tulpa mention (ugh), but then Sam says "It's not a tulpa" and Dean says to put some Schwarzenegger on it and imitates "It's not a tumour". This came out after my article www.blueflamemagick.com/index.php/20... 1/?

Well that fucking jinxed it. Excuse me while I plunge into ridiculous/dumb comedies for the rest of the day.

I hate the sense that makes.

Odd realization: I can't remember when I last had a new spontaneous past life memory, I think it's a least been a year. I'm pretty certain this is the longest it's been basically ever (or at least since 92-93) Don't know why my brain latched to this thought.

YouTube video by Pandora Live Pandora - God (Official Music Trippy Vídeo)

Vajrasattva Mantra with Tibetan pronunciation in psytrance. Well, this will be stuck in my head with the Three Pourings tonight.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=EE48...

Amusingly at this point I'm starting to find unusual if I haven't seen a friend for a decade and they haven't come out as trans in that time. "Wait, you're still cis?" #surreal #EggCollector #HalfJoking #OnlyHalf

at least my take, isn't about "vintage" being more accurate or better or anything, and I don't think they meant that either. Just it was a bit different at the time. 2/2

Someone just told me I have "vintage autism" and I love, hate, and am confused by it (or how to feel about it). I mentioned my diagnosis was ~20 years ago, and they said "That's before they expanded the criteria, that's vintage autism you got there." I mean, I guess. To be clear, the comment 1/2

I'm not saying I have a problem...but it took under twenty seconds from seeing this post to me buying the deck. I somehow missed hearing this was coming out.

Something something cheaters never prosper.

Playing charades with family, not doing well, try to cheat using sign language with my Deaf mother...only to realize how bad both of our sign language has become. Apparently almost never using it for 20 years means you forget a lot.

Thankfully that hasn't happened much to me that I know of. Now the time I was carried around in a statue-idol for whoever knows how long, that gives weird memories of "I think I was there...but also not really"

I can't tell if I skipped it or not, I have memories that might be then, but the culture isn't documented clearly enough and I don't have enough concrete details to narrow it down more than like a two-three hundred year period. Definitely feeling Dr. Manhattan's "I am tired of Earth" vibe more.

Mom to my siblings and me: Do you remember Aunt Anne? No wait, you wouldn't, you weren't alive yet. *looks at me* Well, you might remember her.

Did my mom just make a past life memory joke with me? Also no, that would be part of my ~26 year blank spot of no memories.

(Reminded by the last post)

Tumblr (?) conversation.

I mean, I didn't have such a bad time *shrugs*

Milarepa, a Tibetan yogi, sits holding a bowl in his lap, the other hand beside his ear listening.

Five of Wands: Milarepa - Myth Weaver Tarot

#TCotD
#MythWeaverTarot
#TarotSky

I wouldn't necessarily think of putting Milarepa here, but I like how it works.

A Garuda, a humanoid bird like figure, grasps two snakes whose tails are in their mouth

Warrior of Swords: Garuda - Myth Weaver Tarot

#TCotD
#MythWeaverTarot
#TarotSky

Then I probably would have loved it, I tend to oversalt stuff to most people's tastes.

I missed this post, it looks great, how was it?

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I'll be 41 next month, my most commonly eaten meal is chicken strips (in vinegar with cheese, dipped in seafood sauce) which I've had several times a week for ~30 years, I got my autism diagnosis ~20 years ago.

How did I just realize I'm the autistic chicken nugget stereotype?

@ravingsockmonkey.bsky.social Happy birthday!