sr.

this is not aht the graduation and is intended for a single one person target audience but ok ig what the hell sure

i hope it never comes to this

i can't do anything rn other than lie on my bed and let time pass by as if i have nothing to do when i should be doing a lot of things now

i don't understand myself

im sorry im not the person you all expected to be

dirty work. im just dirty work

out of all people, it shouldve been you who knew me the most

do u rlly even gaf ab me bffr

pick up the pieces where i left it

i need and have to try somehow

im too cruel

"damn" yeah right okay thanks for the concern

why am i like this i hate this so much

perhaps that goal of mine isnt too far away after all

i'll never survive in this world

i guess it really was all just me

im sorry if i wasnt enough or if i was too much

okay lang geh haha

parehos lang man kamo mun

do i really have to change?

we've been tight knit together all these years, i contributed so much into forming our little group, it was all i ever dreamed of

and yet...

why do i seem so different

why can't i seem to understand their point of view

cold, distant, and nonchalant--is that even me?

does growing up mean that i would have to just accept it and act like this?

have you all changed, or am i just too immature?

"hugs" ":((" "we're here for you"

it feels like it's been years since i heard those words from you all

everyone speaks, bears their heart out

yet why does it seem like im the only one you all shut out

yet why do you forget about this?

you knew how sensitive i was

you have no idea how much your words have haunted me all these years