Just Me and Stuff

I’m sharing this so I don’t just bottle it up and disappear.

I don’t want pity or offers to help.

I just need to get through this, and I hope people understand if I seem cold, tired, or distant for a while.

Im not handling things well right now. Im exhausted, and I feel worn down in a way that doesn’t go away with sleep.

My ADHD meds are honestly doing most of the work keeping me steady. Without them, I know exactly where this headspace has taken me before, self-harm, drinking, and endless ER visits.

I’m behind on everything. The apartment is a mess, my pets are getting the bare minimum, and my own self-care is almost nonexistent. Seeing that every day just feeds the feeling and pulls me further down.

This isn’t anyone else’s fault.
This is my brain working against me instead of with me.

I want to be honest about where I’m at lately.
I’ve been really tired - not just physically, but mentally and it’s made motivation, focus, and even basic house chores feel way heavier than they should.

⚙️My webserver and email-server finaaally work stablely✨️

🔧Been struggling with the mail server for daaays to make all DNS certificates work properly so mail don't get flagged as spam✅️

Finaaaally got to put rings in my helix'es✨️🧷

I have been so tired lately.. I haven't been able to finish a single project🫩

My baby,Steven had surgery and have fully recovered. He is doing much better now!✨️🩷🦖

Am still alive >< .. Haven't posted for a while

A friend of mine gifted me these ADORABLE, handcrafted cups🥰🩷

My server setup is such a mess right now.
I dont have room of it all to be in one place so its kind of all over the apartment where there is space 😣
And I have 5 x 5 port switches in diff places.

Another round of car repairs/uprades 🛴🔧

Found someone who sold the
4 x WD Purple disks on marketplace with less than 10k hours each for really cheap. That was an extremely lucky find!! ✨️✨️

Specs:
- Motherboard: ASUS B85M-G
- CPU: Intel i7-4790K
- RAM: 16 GB DDR3

- Storage:
4 × WD Purple 2TB
2 × Toshiba P300 3TB

- Controller: LSI 9217-8i HBA [IT mode]
- Extras: eSATA bracket

This is my “new” NAS that I just finished building.
It’s mostly put together from second-hand and marketplace parts.
The only brand-new component is the case.

I am REALLY happy with the Roomba I got for cheap and fixed up. He is such a good lil worker!!

Re-dyed my hair 🎨🖌

Bought this NASTY Roomba J7 used for €75. Tore it apart and spent 2h deep cleaning every part of it. Actually, a really good purchase price wise, but omfg, did the last owner use it to vacuum his sewage?? 🤢🪛⚙️

This is my lil workbench, stuffed into the storage room ⚙️🪛🛠

Nose bandaid, yay or nei?
(Do you think it's cute?)🩹👈🏻

My friend made this really cute knitted hat for me 🩷🩷

My cusins gave me all their Pokémon cards✨️🩷

Planned to use some old parts and this old mid tower case to build a NAS, but I managed to .. break.. 2 if my 3TB disks .. and this case is NOT very smart designed..

I MANAGED TO BREAK 2!! HDDS TODAY!! BOTH 3 TB DISKS I CRYYYYYYYYYYYYY😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

He ain't scared of nottin 🦖✨️

I made a Moonlight stream control interface

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☕ I made a ko-fi account 🪙
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Time to vote! Doing my duty as a citizen✅️

After I started taking ADHD medication instead of anti-psycotica, I've actually felt like I'm alive instead of just existing ✨️