Lucky!

I don't want anymore secrets, I don't want to keep hiding how much I'm struggling, I want to be a good friend and I'm sorry to everyone that I suck at it. I am doing my best to learn every day

I learned my life has meaning with school and my grandmas showed me there's a reason to pursue it.
however I run into moments where I need to act human but due to people needing my help and I get stuck and hide.

I spent my whole life never asking for help and it bit me in the ass recently to the point where I was so burnt out of doing everything on my own that I spent weeks drinking 24/7 and trying to end my life. I finally have people who love me unconditionally which i still don't feel like I deserve.

all while self sabotaging relationships. I finally found freedom to grow and love myself and I still have to rely on someone that constantly verbally assaults me and putting me down.

Went from being in a physically/verbally abusive house hold to a relationship at 17 with someone 5-6 years older than me. I learned 0 life skills and spent 5-6 years of my life taking care of someone who constantly put me in danger, instead of doing anything for myself.

I'm sorry to everyone for being such a cold person. I realize I can be apathetic in moments the average person runs to console. Learning a lot about myself the last few months.
( tw for a bunch of things )

y'all remember when i posted art

a bald eagle 's face is shown in a painting ALT: a bald eagle 's face is shown in a painting

the 5 people who i consistently talk to:

a bald eagle 's face is shown in a painting ALT: a bald eagle 's face is shown in a painting

me: im sooo lonely waaa
the 200 contacts of people who are down to talk

actually upsetting that this is me 24/7

2026 resolutions
• graduate highschool
• get drivers license
• dont end up in a situation ship
• go back to therapy
• track daily journaling for longer than 2025 (stopped mid year)

guys i got enough sunlight today im finally not depressed :)

Skulldog tani with their mouth closed

Skulldog tani with their mouth open

Here's two frames of a png tuber I drew for tani on twitch, check them out here twitch.tv/tani_latiso
#twitch #pngtuber

beautiful cat 10/10

I feel like future me is wanting to shake me by the shoulders and yell at me to start the damn fursuiting buisness

This is what I mean when I say I like vampires

"just post art and stop yapping" you all say while shaking your fists

is it bad that i have a massive parasocial crush on jerma. like I watch his streams and im kicking my feet and cheesing
I'm diseased so bad in the head

ok i think it is the edible

maybe its the edible but one of the most beautiful things is getting to know someone to the point where they exist in your brain

I really hate how people label themselves at babyfurs, proship, maps like no youre just a pedophile!

Didn't think I'd have to say this but please don't talk or interact with me if youre a zoo, babyfur, or into animals or children in *any way*

my child 5 months apart
yall dont know how proud i am

YouTube video by ca7rielypacoVEVO CA7RIEL & Paco Amoroso - BAÑO MARÍA (Short Film)

my biggest guilty pleasure (not guilty of anything)
youtu.be/j6hZv58R2tM?...

also dont pay attention to my notes i dont know what im doing

it is def a three monster kinda night

I'm becoming such a slut 😮‍💨

the other day i put body wash on my chest and left it there for 5 seconds to grab a sponge and my shit swelled up so bad and now the skin there is like rough and hard. me think im allergic to soap

raised as siblings to lovers is still wrong guys

I use to enjoy being sick bc it was an excuse to relax at home but now I'm feeling lonely as hell T_T