Darya

Every time I feel especially bad mentally to the point of completely cutting off of the society and thinking about sh, the first thing I check is my period calendar
3/5 times, it helps with understanding that I’m not going completely insane

And no one would care

I love that I can go on bluesky, be mentally unstable and disappear again for several weeks

This destructive thought process killing my soul. I’m trying to be a better version of myself, but it’s like I slip into this pattern of self sabotage the second my mind understands that I don’t have enough energy to fight back or convince myself in better view of my spare time

A lot, after long holidays, my first thought is “shit, I did nothing productive, I had so much time”
And only after I would be able to catch this thought ruining my mood on purpose, a second thought come, saying:
“Wait, out of 4 days of holidays, I worked through 2,5 of them”

Allen from the poster separately (because I spent too much time on him for just simply leave him on the background)

#art
#theinvincible

- You two have spent whole night inside - What the hell you’ve been doing here?

- DONT LOOK - We’ve been doing nothin important! - Were you never taught to knock?!

My first thought, when I first saw Allen the Alien in The Invincible show, was “damn he is hot”
My second thought was “hell yea he is so hot”
My third thought was “I bet he will be a crush of my main OC”

#digitalart
#procreate

Pretended to be swag aunt and sang Sigma Boy with my niece in karaoke

I know how insane I can be with restrictive eating and over exercising and I promise to be mindful

Well, to be completely honest, last seasonal depression episode pretty much buried me, my self esteem and I gained a belly from eating too much of the food I was not supposed to

Impulsive thoughts forcing me to renew my fitness subscription and get myself back to gym

I remember how stressed I was back then. I just moved to Moscow and had to change work place, because of how the recent one was stressing me out
I was undereating, not having enough money to provide for myself

But I looked so good on photos

Did a very bad thing and looked at my own photos from 2021
And now I’m not only feeling lonely, but also having bad body image day!

I just want to be special for one singular person

Is that too much to ask

I’m having a CRISIS AGAIN

hoping that this is just a pms thing
I’m this close to start using dating apps again and this never finishes with me feeling better

Feeding my delulu again

😞

Tbh?
Cried during this moment. And I’m not ashamed to admit that

not kink shaming here, but I didn’t want to know, that this person, who draws self insert characters of himself and his boyfriend using chastity belt
Or that one artist, who draws all girls in his comics with too large of boobs

So saddened by the fact that r/comics became a place of constant political outrage (justified, but too enforced to my taste and mostly about US politics) and barely covered kinks and fetishes
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Found a patch of grey hair on my head a few days ago

Can’t wait for my hair to get completely grey, so I won’t have to bleach it ever again to get this fancy platinum blonde look 🤟🏻🤟🏻🤟🏻🤟🏻🤟🏻

Should I make a comic out of this idea?

Imagine becoming such a respected figure that people name some chunky comet in your honour
This name lives for decades and centuries
And one day this comet becomes the inevitable threat to Earth, whipping humanity by hitting our planet with an impact of 10 atomic blasts

And my executive dysfunction always makes me think that editing will be boring
Even though I like editing videos..

What a weird thing this brain of mine is capable of doing

I tore my face apart a bit out of anxiety
And working in Premiere defo adds some of the stress, with amount of times I have to reopen it after it gets bugged

The real answer!!

#YIAYkart for 80 dollars you can buy 68 kg of buckwheat. If you’ll be eating it for breakfast, lunch and dinner every day (with 190grams per serving), this amount will last for 119 days

Tired of mood swings

I need to stop reading triggering messages, reminiscing about the past and thinking

Added too many details and now struggling to actually finish this

#art
#fnaf #poppyplaytime

I’m very glad to see Dream posting consistently again

Especially very conveniently on my lunch breaks. Very nice of him

Today was a big day
Not only I fixed all audio tracks for upcoming video for yt, but also forced the community of the players to enjoy naked anime girls with juicy burgers instead of seggsy booba