Kivrin E

Ohhh I love it.

Me wearing a black leather jacket, in my building foyer. My hair is getting long

Me wearing a black leather jacket, in my building foyer

I look exactly the same. Which is good because I like how I look. I miss daylight so much though.

I am firmly pro this idea

A slice of toffee cake in a lacy tray because I didn't think to stop the complex wrapping until I saw the person go to tie it up in something. That does mean I got to unwrap it though which is cool.

Yay! (It is gone now. I have eaten it.)

free teleportation pls

I think that hour not sleeping but just... being warm helped a bit. I'm gonna go see if I can find a reasonably priced pastry somewhere, and talk myself out of the temptation to get an espresso martini for the first time in years because I do not want to spend time at a bar. Even if I like it.

I really do want to go spend time with you. I just have all these circumstances (and mental shit) to contend with. Ilu.

Hopefully my brain will allow it soon enough. Apparently I also need to check if I'm allowed to leave the country because there's some clause in my mom's (currently nonexistent) benefits about it.

Got under a blanket with the cats for a bit. May or may not be crying but it's like 80% because I'm so thankful for my friends.

lol I'd say I'll hold you to that but the present will be visiting you lbr

I will be obnoxious about saying I'd still love to get some help towards buying a PS5 on Black Friday. Paypal is battlesinthemorning@gmail.com and unfortunately money does cheer me up.

I woke up thinking you know, I'm gonna be really obnoxious about telling everyone it's my birthday but it's 4 PM and I'm too tired lmao. Hopefully coffee (and Ciri having left my room, where she'd been getting in places that make me nervous) will help.

Right? I understand being disappointed and expressing that, but some people make hating on things their whole personality. On occasion I will send a bitchy comment to a friend about The Last of Us, but I don't say it to people's faces. Plus, something not being for me doesn't mean it's not good!

*bats eyelashes*

A picture of Gorgug, my brown tabby cat, lying on a folded blanket and illuminated partly by my space heater

There is absolutely nothing going on behind those eyes.

I can't decide whether I want to use the Murdle book like a normal book or like a puzzle book. I'm doing pencil and erasing it after but it would be fun to color-code. But then it would be useless after! I could also work up a bunch of grids on scraps of paper and use markers on that, I guess?

So as usual it's all very Peter and the Wolf. I know you'd be like this even if it weren't admittedly kind of an irresponsible purchase I'm thinking about making, so I'm annoyed about it.

I want to say I understand why my mom is clearly judging me for wanting to buy a PS5 and not going along when she expected me to pay for groceries today just because I tested out a card yesterday, but last year I had to ask her to be nicer about my birthday gift, which was two 7 eur sets of dice.

This Saturday! I added a couple things to the list too.

It's three years on January 26 I think, which is kind of a mindfuck. How have I not managed to do anything with my life in three years on bupropion, but also, the mental stability since is priceless.

A close-up of a paper calendar with the 18th (of October) circled (rectangled?) and the note: 1000 days SOBER underlined

I forgot.

Me with my hair slightly wet because I don't use a hair dryer if I can help it, wearing a dark blue plaid shirt and holding Murdle: Volume 1 in my arms.

@aliascelli.bsky.social Yay! Thank you! I forgot I put this on the list and it was such a nice surprise. <3333

I found the bit that was loose and went to look closer at it to make sure it wasn't something I could tighten myself and it turns out it just hadn't opened fully? Like there was a protruding thing that had gone "nah, I'm not moving any further than this" and I just had to brute force it into place.

is fine, I can exchange it after these dry, it's just not making me any more relaxed to see it.

This Cthulhu game continues to stress me out, but I'm pretty sure that's partly because I was tense already from the dark and the rain and the laundry situation, and I got a vertical clotheshorse with money I should not be spending and now I've put clothes on it I've realized it's crooked, which

Depending on how it displays folder, it could be a better option for my disastrous "miscellaneous one-shots and mini campaigns" board though.

I'd been meaning to try Notion for a while but unfortunately it now calls itself AI-powered and not only do I not want AI near anything I write, I also don't trust it, so it can fuck right off.

(Obsidian remains not pretty enough. Unfortunately. I'm still using Trello for campaign notes.)

oh, I like Ellipsus. I don't know that I have a real use for it, but if I ever get over myself and start GMing or writing again, it could be pretty useful.

But I don't know when the unwritten backstory in my brain settled on that many.

We're about to fight THEE BBEG so I figured I could go back to see my family. And my 18 siblings. Who I now need to name because I can't saddle my DM with that on top of everything else (plus I wanna keep the Māori theme as best I can). Kauri was always meant to have come from a big loving family.