Kivrin E

It looks weirdly like very good cosplay.

Every time I play a Dragon Age game, there comes a moment when I'm like, how come there are so many dragons? And then I go, oh right, *Dragon* Age.

I've only played two Dragon Age games but, you know. Two nickels. It's weird that it happened twice.

Made sure to put it on its side next to the basket this time where I will actually look.

I misplaced my passport recently. Turned out to be under the basket where I keep my glasses wipes. I would not have guessed that in a million years and I'm usually SO organized and had lost hope by the time I found it, so, good luck???

Decided early on to romance Davrin or Harding and I had to say no to Harding because unfortunately I want my big Qunari rogue to make this guy cry. He's hot and he has a pet you can squeeze within an inch of its feathery life from the moment you meet them. It's terrible. (It's awesome.)

I wish Veilguard didn't make me "cut off the possibility of a relationship" with companions. All this gender stuff and I can't be poly too? Plus, half the time the flirting lines are what I would say if I WEREN'T flirting. So I'm gonna have to turn down everyone?!

Selfie of a white person with coppery brown shoulder-length hair falling over a woolly green coat. You can see the ruffle of my white shirt underneath. I am also wearing cats eye glasses. Light is kinda funny because I was waiting for my mom at an ATM.

Selfie of a white person with coppery brown shoulder-length hair falling over a woolly green coat. You can see the ruffle of my white shirt underneath. I am also wearing cats eye glasses. Background is kinda funny because I was waiting for my mom at an ATM.

Black & white selfie of a white person with shoulder-length hair falling over a dark coat. You can see the ruffle of my white shirt underneath. I am also wearing cats eye glasses. The background is black and white like, literally divided in halves -- dark (ATM nook wall) on the left and light (glass panes) on the right. I'm smiling cutely, you can kinda see minor dimpling.

We're having a few days with 20C+ highs and it means I didn't have to juggle one of my gloves to take selfies outside yesterday because I didn't actually need to wear them.

That is a wonderful compliment, thank you. <3

HOW are they not DONE drilling yet? I would give multiple limbs for the noise to stop forever. Preferably theirs.

I may be reverse engineering my own peace of mind by having cider. It's not gonna do anything because there's very little of it, I got it for my mom to cook with, but I'm like, Not Allowed to drink because of bad feelings and I want to drink it because it's tasty so. Can't be angry now.

thank you. <3

The worst part about having an emotional meltdowns (other than the fact that the circumstances are such to cause one) is how cold I get. I should not be cold. I wasn't as cold as usual this morning, because it's 19 degrees outside. But nope.

Thank you. Fully teared up, I knew I was touch-starved but can you be compliment-starved? You'd think I wouldn't be, I have a fantastic friend who compliments me all the time, but. Yeah.

Love you too.

Another closeup selfie I took yesterday with some kind of line or dip under my eye that went away later

I also feel very silly saying this but I... have felt weird about my face recently and I want someone to call me pretty. Hell, I probably just need a reminder that people see positive things in me, in general.

but my sister creates more. I realized this weekend I've internalized as my responsibility to use as few paper towels as possible because my mom is always complaining that my sister goes through them so fast. That's kind of what got me. How many other things am I not even aware I carry?

The sun was shining this morning. It's not cold, though I'm cold now because certain feelings make me cold. Sister is hogging the washing machine again. Should have done laundry when she was gone last night, but I hate doing laundry at night. I try so hard to take obstacles out of the way of my ADHD

Artsy b&w selfie because I'm here making myself sad on purpose with music to see if I can get some tears out. And I realized my face was kinda stuck like this.

So my mom said a thing she says a lot and I always tell her not to but brush off ("don't use up too much ____") but this time it... really spiraled in my mind. And I was on edge for a bit. And then I was sad, because I can never keep up mad for long. It's exhausting. Don't know how anyone does it.

We are so close but I could really use a little help to make it through next week. Any little bit would help, it's just for groceries and toiletries and meds, the bills are all paid.

how dare you deprive him of attention in his hour of need

I hadn't played one of these open-world exploration games in ages and @natescape.bsky.social got me Dragon Age: Veilguard last week and it's maybe consumed my brain space a tad. Just a little bit.

I really want to do this sometime if I can ever spare however much it costs (how much does it cost? It will probably be different for me since I'm in a different country but I don't really have a ballpark).

A picture of a curved clear glass with iced coffee and a metal straw in it, atop a floral ceramic coaster. Next to it you can see the spiral from my planner and the Hollow Knight head controller holder that I haven't found a forever home for yet.

Found my coffee glass in pieces in the sink yesterday so I picked up a replacement and also a cheap coaster so I can fully fix the one I normally use -- it broke in half and I fixed that but it's still missing tiny pieces I kept.

All I can say about last week's episode of The Pitt is: ow.

How do illustrators feel about the map-making programs with assets? From what I can tell they are ethical & people are compensated for the assets they provide -- but I'm wondering if people consider it only sort of art or something worse. To me it's like a demonic hybrid between art and paper dolls.

Gorgug sitting on my window sill with airplane ears

A really close selfie where I'm looking at the camera but have the same face I had a second before looking at Gorgug: the one that says "god, I love you, you're so stupid" with endless affection

Gorgug peering around the window and moving around so fast I caught him in silhouette with his tongue sticking out the bottlm of his face.

Two sides of the same phone.

(I genuinely do appreciate the advice, I'm not always a fan of unsolicited tips online but this was helpful. At the very least it encourages the part of me that always wants to be like, look look I'm making a thing!)

I appreciate the advice but even the thought of all this is stressing me out a little. Baby steps, lol.

The other thing is I used to be a blogger and graphic designer, and I got incredibly burned out and frankly near traumatized by the experience, so I don't want to be that way about this. I know that means I won't get attention, but I need to weigh social media nonsense against my mental health.

I am not drawing though, I am using an RPG map-making tool -- not Inkarnate, but similar. I'm still not fully comfortable with it so I want to practice a little. I can definitely share that process though.

I want to get more comfortable first though. And have something to show.