lotus 🪷 ; 🍋sky (-62/80)

only thing i learned is i can’t pvrge on wellbvtrin unless i want seizures 🤩 and i v much don’t

the goal is being so busy studying theres just no time to even think abt food!

😮

like it’s finally not just sacks of f@t that look like they’ll never go away i feel like i could actually look like an athlete soon w/o being so embarrassing . and they hav no idea what that means to me

i still get shocked i can do this move now that’s been kicking my ass in gymnastics for years and it’s bc im LIGHTER. strong and lighter. why would i give that up

i haven’t been this small since 17 !!! i hav never been remotely okay w my body as i am now !! bc it finally is working !!!

my psych!atrist being like u should get treatment and im like i have zero wishes or motivation rn

it’s complicated bc they got bad news and need space and my triggers revolve around someone pushing me away 😭

this is what happens when u date someone who knowingly hits every one of ur tr@uma triggers

my gf literally is begging for a fight atp

i hate that we don’t have drafts

update that it did the same thing or either my scale is wrong or theirs is and im gonna pretend mine is right <3

i love chicken nuggets and mac and cheese ☹️

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TY SARIA

HIT GW3 THIS MORNING !!!

i had shoes on and heavy clothes PLUS i was supposed to hydrating before 😭

im not underwe!ght so they won’t see enough to court commit me. i wanna stop paying for sessions that dont do anyth anyway

and if i tell my diet!tian idgaf what she gonna do

i forgot to weigh myself when i woke up and then the sc@le at my appointment said i was 6lbs heavier 😭

barely called her and she already b pushing my boundaries when ive asked her for YEARS to stop 🫩 i need to call even less atp

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gn mooties i hope my scale doesn’t decide to be an asshole in the morning 🤩

250c? dinner which is p good for me having no idea what the d!ning hall was gonna have

don’t hav my drink that gives me most protein grams for least c@ls 😔

my protein intake is so mf bad today maybe i do actually need to hav d!nner

should not have told my mother i he@db@anged in a bathroom stall bc she already hates that i hav mental health issues

like i hyperventilate headbang wanna scratch pvrge scream throw things its so bad

decided im going to Feel my Feelings from now on but i dont think ive had meltdowns like this since i was like 6 and didnt know how to mask

yall my gf yesterday asked what i ate and I BLANKED FOR TOO LONGGGGGG finally came up w “starbucks!” bc frankly a frappucino for bfast cheezits for lunch and a protein drink for dinner do not b meals

my fucking scale first showed 145.0 THEN 149.4 😭😭😭

ur so real