Aevis Targaryen

Another one is if we mention that something might be challenging or difficult, I just respond with “we’re in a long distance relationship. How hard can this really be?”

One of my favorite things is whenever me or my boyfriend get flirty, the both of us have knee jerk reactions to make the situation as stupid and unsexy as possible.

Can confirm. My boyfriend is both a furry and a pup and I’m just like when I see him

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From yesterday that is

Gym is closed today but here’s my pull day damage.

That vein though!!

Thank you friend 😊. I’m doing my best after a ton of setbacks.

Leg day from day earlier.

I sleep

It’s only been 15 days but I already see a difference

Thank you! I’ve been getting into jerseys lately.

I’m baaaaack. Move happened and things are starting to kind of ease up some. A lot has happened in just two weeks. Lots of good things :).

I’m almost back up to 195! Won’t be much longer before I’m back to 200 again.

This year has started out so good already.

Im still going to regularly come out to Seattle, this place is too special to me. Hopefully I might be able to move back. God knows I have plenty of reasons to move back.

But yeah. Im emotional right now. But I’m doing fine. My parents are fine too, I should mention.

Legit was one of the hardest decisions I’ve had to make in leaving Seattle. I don’t want to leave, and of course within the last month I made a pair of really good friends and I have no idea how I’m gonna break it to them.

I’m sad that I have to leave for now, but I know this is the right thing.

I guess I should get back on here and finally speak up on the big changes that are happening

I’m moving back to MA.

Due to developments with my parents, I made the decision that living at home/closer to home for a while would be better than being so far away.

Hi I’m still kicking. Lots of changes have been going on over on my end, but things will even out soon.

I’ll tell y’all more about it later :)

Best birthday present I’ve gotten.

I had one of these in middle school when my wrist would cramp horribly from dyspraxia.

I see why people wear compression shirts now.

I’ve been working out again! Which is nice. I’m setting a goal for myself to actually stick to competing in a powerlifting meet next year. I was supposed to do that this year but I wimped out.

So the next few months I’m focusing on getting my strength back up.

Okay little update: I’m out of that funk I was in two months ago.

Sorry for making such a dramatic display out of it (I don’t think it actually was *that* dramatic, I was just sad and moody. Happens to all of us.)

I’m trying to be accepting of my emotions when they happen.

I should reread some Tennyson again.

Back in college me and a few friends used to call him Alfred, Lord Tennis Ball.

Yeah sadly. Things are just a lot right now. 😔

I miss enjoying and looking forward to working out.

Sorry for all the sad posts. Here’s hoping it doesn’t last much longer and I phase back into the aether of not posting on social media again.

I miss my 2023 self.

Gah I need to get out of this funk. I just look back at some of my old photos from back then and I was in such a different place.

Not to discount all the personal growth that I’ve done in the last two years. I just miss my old self sometimes.

I feel like it’s been ages since I got something for myself.

Granted I don’t think I should be doing a lot of spending right now but it did feel kind of nice

I hate complaining about my problems because I feel like I’m just wasting my breath on something I need to just figure out myself. I guess vocalizing and sharing it with others eases the burden, but I feel like I’m just shifting burden from myself to others.

I’m just kinda rambling now 😅

Not to sound melodramatic or anything, but I’m kinda used to it at this point. I think what upsets me the most when I stop to think about it is that it’s not the feeling of loneliness that upsets me, but rather the fact I’ve grown so used to it and just kind of accept it.

It still sucks though.

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But it still doesn’t make it easier?

I dunno. I just also feel a bit isolated nowadays, maybe some of it is self imposed. But I definitely don’t feel socially fulfilled lately either.

Ahh thoughts are being unreasonable right now. I’m gonna just go back to Elden Ring.

Maybe it’s foolish of me to feel this way, and I don’t know why it bothers me so much.

I think one thing getting me down is that I kind of feel left behind in a lot of aspects of my life right now. People kind of moved on from me, and that’s okay. I’m used to that.

I’ve been trying both and it helped for a while but now I’m just falling back to square one.

I hope things get better for the both of us😣