Sanmi~🎃💤

What kinda cable is this anyway? Can I just buy a new usb thingy at the store, if the insert-part looks the same? Or do I need it to be from huion?

Fate said: “quit”

So uhhhhh,,, Lori chewed the cable of my graphic tablet.

It must’ve been like this for a week or so… and I just now noticed.

And I gotta live with lil sis’ bestie. I’ve been around him all week, since they are visiting rn.
He is good to hang with. As in, I can make weird noises and he makes weird noises back. He’s chill. So that’s good.

But man, the kitchen would be kinda small for all my snacks lolol.

Also bout the new flat, there’s stores within “walkable” distance but it’s kinda far when you buy water bottles n litter for the bunny shitter,,, gotta do heavy lifting.
And the flat is right under the roof, so summer will be warm and stinky with my bunnies…

The current flat will be too big for just two people. It’s already too big for us three rn.
We’ve been told to move right after lil sis moved out, which was ~7 years ago… and my parents still haven’t gotten to it.
It’s annoying.
So we’re kinda forcing it now.
But I feel bad about it.

Well, lil sis n her best friend already printed out some stuff for moving out to the flat we looked at on Tuesday,,, cuz Jobcenter wants information before giving the okay.

And I mean yeah,,, I like the flat, but now things are moving kinda fast.

My parents will also need to move n see where to go

I lived.

May have eaten cake with hazelnuts. My mouth-insides and throat are itching n swelling a tad.
Lmao. Guess I’ll die.

(The swelling usually subsides after a while, I’ll prolly be fine.)

The Barian adoptables sold well.
(It was two. I sold both. That’s a 100% success rate. I am totally cool and capable of making more and getting paid for it. Woohoo.)

Anyway, I just gotta draw.
Hopefully I’ll be back to normal once March hits.

I gotta work on myself.

All the plans from 2023 and onwards still stand.
Zexal keychains when???
Like,,, I still wanna make stuffff but I’m tired and I haven’t drawn in so long, I am starting to forget how to draw.

I just gotta do it. But I’ll do it from March onwards, cuz then I’ll be out of a “job” again.

Work is draining as hell.
The activities are easy enough but my brain is not happy with the repetitiveness and my back is ughhh from standing 5 hours a day.

It sucks that I don’t have any energy to draw afterwards…
Like, I’m at a point where I actually miss making art… but I’m too tired to draw.

Lotsa paperwork shtick.
It’s quite annoying.

I’d prolly wanna look at more flats, maybe get one with a balcony. Or stay more in the middle of town with all the stores…
The interior was super nice but the location is ehhh…

I need to hurry with packing.
We’re moving this year. It’ll suck lol.

But it’s close to the train, so I could visit lil sis or go places lol.

Not sure how the bunnies would like it tho…

Also the delivery people will have trouble finding our door…

The building owner was nice, but ya gotta hurry if ya want the flat n lil sis’ pal is moving in from faaar away…

Went to check out a flat in person yesterday.
Aside from it being right under the roof (top floor, but technically still only the third floor overall), it was pretty nice.
Spacious enough, bright rooms, bathtub.
But if ya gotta buy groceries, you’ll have to walk a bit.
And summer will be hell…

Haven’t made any progress on packing or sorting through belongings cuz I’m too tired from work.

I’ll get back to making art.
I don’t have any other options.
Just need to clean up my space first.
Wonder if anyone is still there, after I’ve been on break from art for so long…

Two more weeks of working and then I’ll try to make more adoptable character designs.
Since ya still need some sorta income to plan the move.

Need to send another letter to the Jobcenter after looking at the second flat. Since ya need approval, cuz they only cover rent if the size fits their rules.

Spent Valentine’s Day sleeping all day and finished a puzzle, whilst watching big sis’ dog (he kept barking all night).

Everyone went to a concert together and then they brought me nuggets lol.

Gotta get dressed n go to work again. For 1,50€ an hour…
Seriously what the fuck even is that?? How is this legal??

Drecks kack AGH kann mich mal kreuzweise. Ich bin müde.

The only things keeping me alive are my bunnies, Jack Krauser, and guilt.

I hate it here.

All I do is vent and whine.
Nobody irl gives a damn about me. They all expect me to listen and care about their struggles, but nobody is there for me.
Not in a way that actually helps, anyway.

I don’t even have any hobbies.
I don’t do anything anymore.
Even the dishes are getting neglected. I only washed them once this week and the other times I let mom do it cuz I was too tired from working 5 hours a day.

What’s even the fucking point to life, if I’m never gonna be happy?

Spent my whole youth wanting to die and never made a plan for the future, cuz I didn’t think I’d last this long, and now the only thing to do is work and sleep.

Jobs aren’t fun.
Stop asking if I’m having fun.
I wanna perish.

I am this close to grabbing a knife and poking holes into me.

"money can't buy happiness!!" no, but it buys security which mitigates stress which affects mental health which impedes happiness. so...

ko-fi.com/itsashowtime...

Hello :'D I'm in a really tough spot atm,,,,

Any help is appreciated!! preferably, finding homes for the adopts will help the most!!!

ベク皇子への幻覚

I’ll clean the bunny room, shower, and then I’ll dust off the laptop and derp around.
Maybe declutter some files and delete stuff to free space.
We’ll see.

I wanna draw, but I don’t wanna fail at it or waste too much time on something mediocre,,,
And I definitely gotta draw for myself and nobody else.
And return to drawing cats and fursonas. I’m not in the mood for humanoid anatomy anymore.

My parents are gonna be livid but I’m done with always coming last and being nobodies first priority.
I’m 26 and tired of never getting any privacy at home. I wanna stay up at night to draw without disturbing anyone… if I ever return to making art…
It’s still up in the clouds.

One of the flat owners we texted already gave the okay to look at the rooms next Tuesday.
I’ll be at work but lil sis and her bestie who is also her current bf (fiancé?) will go check it out.

And then the guy is gonna be my roommate. It’s way better than living alone cuz bigger space and cheaper.

Just three more weeks of work and then I’m free!!

(No clue what follows after that.)

But I also gotta start sorting through clothes and belongings cuz I’m definitely moving out this year.
I’m sick of being here and my mom will never get started on her own accord, so ya gotta force it.