Bloodsucka 🩸 🧃

I want to cut myself but my bf (now recent ex) is threatening to report me and get my baby taken from me bc I cut

People piss me off and then I take it out on myself bc I’ll go to jail if I take it out on them.

Does that make me mentally ill or is it the people that piss me off and expect me to just take it?

I don’t think I should be hospitalized or medicated bc other people can’t be fucking normal.

Top POV of the 3 staples placed into my head, surrounded by my green and pink hair.

Hit my head on a brick wall, gashed my head open and then booked it down the street with blood running down my face. My neighbors probably think I’m insane now. Sadly, the police and hospital took my phone before I could get a picture of the wound before the staples :/
#sh #shsky #staples #gore

Pixel art: At the aquarium, angelfish and moon jellyfish swim around a girl wearing a whimsical outfit resembling a moon jellyfish. The girl is reaching out to a jellyfish with one hand, who is also reaching out to her.

moon jellyfish 🌙
#art #PixelArt #ドット絵 #イラスト

Getting violently high in the cold Oregon night is best feeling ever I swear. Can only be described as crisp.

All cleaned up, I smoked a bunch of weed after my baby and bf went to sleep so I feel a bit better now

I laugh cried for the first time in years today after I heard one of the cops say “damn, that poor girl” as they were walking away from me. Like that’s me bro. That’s my relationship with the guy I had a baby with. That’s my family. That makes me sick, I thought this was gonna be perfect.

Replacing it with myself instead.

My baby is the only one keeping me here, she’s 1000% enough. I’ll go thru anything to make sure I’m with her 24/7. That’s why I don’t leave my bf, I don’t want to give her to him but I need to get out. I sometimes I wish he’d die so well be free but i love him so I end up taking back that thought &

Please read this thread, I need other people thoughts on this
#advice #relationshipadvice #DV #DVadvice #BD #BM #SH

I didn’t remember it even happened until I finally got back into the house after the cops left and saw the gate of the ground

Of my baby, as if he didn’t go to far and literally pull me through the baby gate onto her, hurting her literally minutes after. I can’t stay with him. I need to get out but idk what to do. I was so shook from him locking me away from my baby, that I forgot to tell the cops ab it when they were here

I didn’t cut in front of my baby, she was there but I was doing it over a table above her. There was no way she saw what I was doing, i do feel bad for doing that in the same room as her. My bf is trying to make me seem like the bad parent for that as if he didn’t beat the shit out of me in front

Why tf would I be here asking you to fucking call the cops for me if I had my fucking phone you old ass dumb fucking idiot omg this makes me hate men with a passion. I wish I could just end myself and get away from these people but I have my baby and she makes life worth living so i can only cut.

I explain to him that he takes my phone and holds me down, sometimes to the point where I’m literally scared for my life and I’ve scream my lungs to try to get the same neighbor to hear me. This mf man decides to be like “does he have your phone now” I was like yeah no shit.-

I ran to our neighbors house and asked them to call the police. I told him how he’s been violent with me in the past and that I was scared bc he locked himself with my baby. the fucking neighbor was like “why haven’t you called the cops before” are you fucking kidding me.

He eventually got in thru another window, grabbed me, pulled me thru the baby gate causing me and it to fall right onto my baby. I tried to grab her while screaming at him about what he just did and he got her before I could get up and locked himself in the bathroom with her.

I locked him out of the house, was arguing with him thru the window and he said something I don’t even remember but it sent me off. I ran,grabbed my razor and came back to the window and just started going at it, not even looking. luckily he snapped me out of it by saying “not in front of the baby”

Boyfriend constantly accusing me of cheating when I’ve never even thought to look in the direction of another male, hell I don’t even leave the door. Tonight I couldn’t take it. It makes me feel so worthless, like everything I do for him and my baby mean nothing to him. I couldn’t take it tonight

That one looks so good omg yum
#sh #shsky

My bf has a video of me doing it in front of him through the window while he was locked out of the house by me. I probably seem insane to him.

A white arm with mostly some little cuts but a few cleaned up, deep, red cuts, rested against a body and sweatpants.

I’ve cut myself for like 12 years but this is the deepest it’s ever gotten, actual razor blades are a good investment
#sh #shsky #shrelapse