Jed S

If I'm a failure I might as well be a dry failure instead of a sweaty one. Also, this one dude keeps trying to pester me about what's wrong and I keep telling him it doesn't matter but he's been trying to get me to talk for like 5 hours now. Like bro, it makes me miserable, stop.

The way my brain is lashing out. And I'm sure part of it is wounded pride, but mostly I just feel like I must be a failure. 6 months and nothing. And they didn't even follow up to tell me till I managed to stop an HR lady and ask for myself. So, why was I trying so hard? Why should I try anymore?

But that doesn't really change anything. It's just me throwing a hissy fit. And I'm so mad about that too, because I KNOW I'm not reacting at an equivalent level to what happened. I know! But my brain is screaming and it's all I can do to keep to myself about it because I know others don't deserve

I just feel so mad. And I know I resent some of my coworkers who I feel "contributed." Even though I'm like 95% sure they didn't have any input in the decision. I'm just so angry. Dude I work with and half assed chaperone? Hired in. Me? Nah. And part of me is angry and pointing fingers about it.

Getting written up for something avoidable. Like, I stay sweeping, squeegee-ing, using the air blower to get under the machines. I stay doing! And apparently, I'm "not attacking the cleanliness of my area aggressively enough." Ma'am I got a fucked up leg and I still get my shit done.

To continue the point, the sup literally has me chaperoning one person who gets super distracted at work. I'm not an asshole about it but if I see him miss something I'll be like "[dude]" and point at what he missed. Because that's not really my job or responsibility, but I also don't want him

But still. It's frustrating feeling like I've worked since months just to be told I'm insufficient.

And like, sure, it's at their discretion, etc etc. but cleaning was literally the only complaint my supervisor had. And I'd like to point out I did clean my areas, even at the end of the night. I was also the only one from my side who'd go over to the other side and look for stuff to help with.

Rough spot, mentally. Work apparently decided they didn't want to hire me on full time, six months in. Apparently I don't sweep enough while the line is moving.

And now I'm reacting REALLY BADLY to it. Like, I'm angry. Not self destructive or anything like that. Just really, really angry.

I'm not sorry, I'm actually kind of proud that this is the result of my actions 🥰

Dunno that there's an audience for this here, but I'm so stoked I managed to clear the high difficulty summoner fight in ffrk.

(Sure it's all in japanese but hey, we adapt )

You ever just be a public menace?

I may have given you lots of years, but I'll thank every star in the sky I didn't give you my best years.

You know, for working in a place with an alleged problem with raging alcoholism, you'd think I wouldn't be having NEARLY this much trouble finding a bottle opener.

It's been revealed to you. My condolences 🫠

You ever have a haircut in mind, and you tell the hairdresser, and they do it PERFECTLY only for you to realize this was good in concept but extremely poor in practice? Lmao

Unrelated, I miss my beard, it hid my double chins xD
I lied, they're related, I told her to shave it down to match my sides🫠

Please don't make me tap the sign

Games are 100% art.
The aesthetics, the backgrounds, character fashions, hell even the menus! (Looking at YOU specifically Persona 5)

So much of video games and their creation is art!

Alright, those final line weight touch ups will be done tomorrow (looking at you White Mage) and then I’m calling them done.

The Winking Owl goes so hard tho.

Maybe I'll make that the name of a tavern in my DND campaign lol

I mean your community contributed to Blork and Clunge shenanigans so....yeah, I'd say they're pretty top tier. Not that I'm biased or anything :^)

Me out here casually filling the moon's void

Is.....is this because I just reacted to your lewd?

Not me almost crying because my friends made chili and gave me a bowl lmaoooo
SO fucking good!

😂😂 look, I work 6 days a week again, my fucksluttery hours are limited okay!

I like how casually I feel like I can scream into the void here. Very nice. Very quiet. Very comfortable.

👀👀👀👀👀👀👀

One thing I enjoy about my job, when the men all show up in snug blue jeans 👀

Hey look, blue sky is online o: