Twen-T Smith Days Later

Ah, thank you!

It's a lovely colour! And perfectly shaped.

Also, giving a presentation a week on Tuesday. Feeling very much like it's not good enough, but it does just what I said in the abstract, so they only have themselves to blame.

Seem to currently be doing a lot of visiting places without time to see people.

This time next week I'll be in London - at a stupid time when meeting with friends won't work! & again on Weds/Thurs!

In between, Stockholm, where at least 2 Klingonists live, again without time to meet. Harrumph.

I feel like I've done loads & I've only read 3.5 papers today 😭

Update: just run across "the dead hand of unaccountable audit". Just. Ok.

(Is "dead hand" a political thing? I remember it being mentioned in the noughties but never since?)

Thought i would be really good & read one more paper this evening. Unlocked my tablet to realise I'd left one in the middle over dinner 😭 sigh. Oh well.

Three good things:

1. Cornish pasty
2. Made a lot of notes on papers. Feel like I'm doing the right things?
3. Kind of struggling now. Afternoon nap?

In fairness, it is frankly unfair that it doesn't work that way. (Commiserations. 💜)

BWA HA HA HA now they are talking about something in the "pubic space", never have i appreciated a missing L more.

(I would just like to point out, or perhaps scream desperately into the cold wind, that I am A PHYSICIST. aaaaaargh.)

"whereas reconciliation produces an integrative closure in dissolving the binary"

Take me out, I'm done; my brain is cooked.

(So much reading! Feel like I'm getting better at highlighting points I will use in my assignment. Organising them will be the tricky part.)

(I wasn't going to do this but it's kind of perfect.)

"Ah, ok. Thanks for letting me know. Are you & (person) ok?"

Sprint's head peeking out of a pile of blankets, fleecy and knitted, on a sofa.

Three good things:

1. Long chat with a good friend
2. Fig rolls
3. This guy:

He's kind of sporadic - there are times when he doesn't use it much, and then other times he does, but it's not always clear exactly what he means! Today he has been saying "help" a lot & I'm not sure what he wants help with.

Maybe I'm doing this course so I can get into the right rooms to call out the hypocrisy of emphasising work-life balance while simultaneously telling people that they just are going to have to work evenings & weekends unpaid. Maybe that's enough.

Oh, those are beautiful 💜

Oh! I thought of another one! I had to work yesterday evening, which Sprint was clearly unhappy with ("no"). After he'd finished the treat ball i gave him, he went to his board & pressed "Sprint" "bye" & went downstairs! 🥹

Tricky one for me this week. But last weekend I had such a lovely time. A moment of tired ridiculousness with friends last Saturday night, laughing hysterically when we realised the card we'd all been searching for didn't exist. And freshly made mini pizzas! Kind of want a plug in pizza oven, now.

Dreamt we got thoroughly burgled. And then our Corgi (?! Didn't even look like a Corgi) had puppies. Very stressful with a little bit of cuteness. 0.5/10

Kinda just hate everything today. I am very sad and very tired, & having a nightmare combination of technical issues & poor communication at work. I really just want to go to bed & cry.

I kind of feel right now like I need to lie in bed & rest like a Victorian heroine, for at least 2 weeks. Sadly the world has other ideas.

I mean, I don't know that there's a good way to be intimidating, now that I think about it. But I think if you at least intend it, that's probably better.

I'm assuming 10 is 'most intimidating'?

7? But in a bad way, in a "she doesn't smile" way, because I'm all too aware people draw conclusions from my face that aren't necessarily accurate.

Three good things:

1. A wonderful friend
2. Cheese sauce
3. One of my work deadlines will be done soon, one way or the other

But you, I know for a fact, have been fantastically kind & wonderful. Fuck the rest. 💜

This sounds *adorable* 😍

Having a sad, grumpy day. Everything is too much. I have too much to do & people keep asking me to do more.

British vs US English confusion:

3 good things for yesterday
- Fight Klub (hitting things is fun)
- Webinar felt useful
- Snuggly warm in bed