gold dynae-mo

its exausting having people tell me theyre interested in reading my writing but never do. I keep writing but i dont know what the point is anymore

I may repost the whole thing when im in a better mood, we'll have to see. Im just embarassed so badly at this point

Deleted the original post anyway, I just wanted to gift some art but only a single person wanted it. God it makes me feel like my art must be bad

I was in such a good mood when I posted it but now its made me more upset I cant win lately :')

Is it too weird to say i just feel like i dont deserve any sort of gift art in return which is why I didnt offer art trades :')

everyone would literally be better off without my dead fucking weight in their lives

i should actually just fucking drop dead who the fuck would even care if i was gone im nothing but a waste of oxygen

woke up tired, again. im so sick of this i could cry

god, maybe i should just drop dead already im insufferable

Guess who's crying and cant sleep tonight :')

my childhood stuffed animal finally broke today and its really stupid but i really want to cry

Realising now all my worldbuilding is disgustingly underbaked what the fuck have I been doing all these years other than wasting time

There i go being a complete fuck up again. The urge to just completely disappear is so fucking real right now

I cant sleep because I cannot for the life of me figure out how I want this goddamn palace to be laid out i am going insane how do people architecture

I can see some rooms so clearly in my mind but I cant put it all together cohesively

ive had three days off work but done absolutely nothing of worth because ive been in pain the whole time ugh

Nothing worse than something super necessary breaking ugh yeah I know the feeling!

Foaming at the mouth because i want more oc art but I really cant afford comms at the moment. But then im also too exhausted for art trades right now too I cant win :')

Either that or my art is actually dogshit and not worth anyones time of day. No wonder its ignored if thats the case

Guess i gotta just stick to posting to my own servers in the end anyway. Maybe i seek too much validation or something idk

Im so tired of posting my art to discord servers and just being ignored completely. I don't know what im doing wrong it try engage in conversation when I can rather than just dropping my art and leaving but I'm still glossed over ;w;

world record holder for mood crashing champion right here

We love having violently strong feelings of not belonging anywhere at 6am in the morning. Yay.

Today feels like it's going to be a complete write off and I'm not even out of bed yet

I had some art i was working on but I dont feel good about it anymore. But ive already spent hours on it idk what to do ;w;

im home now but i still feel just on the verge of a panic attack eughhhhhh

got abused at work today so thats great. thats fine. its totally normal to tell someone you'll track them down to rape them and kill them because YOURE the one banned for abusing staff

I still struggle with anatomy and dynamic poses because I haven't had the time or energy to practice like I would want to. Big fraud energy is back I guess.

Grappling with wondering if my art is just boring to look at. Its just so simple and flat

Im gonna be so embarassed if I cant get a single taker for commissions. I low-key miss twitter before it went to complete shit bsky has been so hard to get any work on

Im so stressed about going back to work i woke up crying... im just terrified im coming back to no work because my boss is mad at me for taking time off when we were a person down. Despite planning it long before they got fired ;w;

Last day of the trip with a 5h drive home tomorrow and I'm in bed with a migrane. Thats just my luck isnt it? I hope its gone by tomorrow 😭